Venting Where do I find happiness?

[Lara Francis]

I am so very tired of fighting against my depression. Its taken me to the point where I can only see and feel despair no matter how hard I try.
I wish I could in visage a future but its just not happening.
When we look past all the distractions and efforts we take to try and convince others that we are OK, what is left?
It leaves me asking, What is the point?
Feeling suicidal right now and I am so fed up with feeling this way. X

 

[Dead beat dad]

I'm feeling this my friend.
I'm so honestly and sincerely sorry you're feeling this way.
I'm so sad to say but I feel you to say that we are but a blink of an eye in time.
I don't want it to feel this way and I don't want you to feel so bad either.
There must be something more, but I'm at a loss.
I'm sorry for your pain my friend, I wish I could say something that would assuage the awful way you feel, I honestly hope there is some peace and light for you my friend.
Love and respect
DBD

 

[Close_to_freedom]

There's drugs, therapy, exercise, sunshine, healthy eating, relationships, hobbies, meditation.

If those haven't helped, then nothing will.

 

[Oyoy]

Have you had a fantastic xhole moment lately.

 

[Darksektori]

Personally I think finding the Holy Grail would be easier then finding happiness.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

Money can't buy it. Neither being famous or good-looking. It's just an state of mind.

 

[Darksektori]

Happiness doesn't exist.

Neither does the Holy Grail
Though eternal life I think would be the ultimate of cruelties

 

[Epsilon0]

Hello @Lara Francis

I read your other post and what you said stuck with me: how do you go back after thinking it was all over? I found myself in a similar situation a few years ago (not ctb related, but just as final). The road back was, and still is, an arduous journey. In some ways, I will never really make it back.

I have no idea where you can find happiness. If I did, I'd go get it myself.

Just wanted to say I read both your posts and I am sorry you are cornered like this. I wish I could find something more helpful to say to you, but alas...