Where can purchase SN? (NL)

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There are some websites but they only sell to certain companies. Im from the Netherlands. Does anybody have a link for me? Thank you so much!
Please pm it to me.
I cannot take this suffering any longer. I will jump off a high building if I must. If i cannot obtain N or SN. I want to CBT soon

There are some websites but they only sell to certain companies. Im from the Netherlands. Does anybody have a link for me? Thank you so much!
Please pm it to me.
I cannot take this suffering any longer. I will jump off a high building if I must. If i cannot obtain N or SN. I want to CTB

soon