girlwhosoldtheworld
life’s a bitch and then you die right?
- Oct 5, 2024
- 1
(my first post on here, sorry if i mess up with anything)
basically, my mom told me that i can't kill myself in her house because she won't be able to live there anymore. the whole reason i'm making plans in the first place is because i don't want to be an burden anymore, and this would cause tons of issues. my brothers are still young and in school, not to mention that it would be incredibly traumatizing for everyone else living here. i am already being incredibly selfish by possibly choosing this route, i want it to have to least effect on everyone around me.
i only have two ideas for a location at the moment:
1) the lake near my house. the problem with this is that there are people that live all around it, and i don't want them to see me or anyone related to the cleanup. i also don't know how far i'd have to be for my mom to not associate my death with her house since my dad sometimes takes my brothers fishing there. we have a lot of photos at this lake too.
2) a forest or something. the issue with this is that i don't have a car, and i can't drive. i could possibly walk to one, but that would take super long, and i don't know how to go about planning an excuse to leave like that, though could come up with something if i thought about it hard enough.
i don't know if this is relevant, but my current planned method is to use my dad's handgun. it will definitely be loud, don't know if that matters if i'm already dead though.
another thing i'm scared of is someone finding my body and doing stuff—not just inappropriate things but anything in general—to it. i'm a girl, and it makes my skin crawl at the thought of anyone mishandling my corpse even after i'm gone.
tbh i'm probably gonna chicken out anyways. this isn't something set in stone, i still have a little hope, but i need to be able to act fast if my time really does come.
any and all advice is appreciated!!! hope everyone has good day today
basically, my mom told me that i can't kill myself in her house because she won't be able to live there anymore. the whole reason i'm making plans in the first place is because i don't want to be an burden anymore, and this would cause tons of issues. my brothers are still young and in school, not to mention that it would be incredibly traumatizing for everyone else living here. i am already being incredibly selfish by possibly choosing this route, i want it to have to least effect on everyone around me.
i only have two ideas for a location at the moment:
1) the lake near my house. the problem with this is that there are people that live all around it, and i don't want them to see me or anyone related to the cleanup. i also don't know how far i'd have to be for my mom to not associate my death with her house since my dad sometimes takes my brothers fishing there. we have a lot of photos at this lake too.
2) a forest or something. the issue with this is that i don't have a car, and i can't drive. i could possibly walk to one, but that would take super long, and i don't know how to go about planning an excuse to leave like that, though could come up with something if i thought about it hard enough.
i don't know if this is relevant, but my current planned method is to use my dad's handgun. it will definitely be loud, don't know if that matters if i'm already dead though.
another thing i'm scared of is someone finding my body and doing stuff—not just inappropriate things but anything in general—to it. i'm a girl, and it makes my skin crawl at the thought of anyone mishandling my corpse even after i'm gone.
tbh i'm probably gonna chicken out anyways. this isn't something set in stone, i still have a little hope, but i need to be able to act fast if my time really does come.
any and all advice is appreciated!!! hope everyone has good day today
