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Rihan

Rihan

Looking for courage of the heart
Jan 11, 2026
57
I've been on 8 for a very long time now. I will be 9 when I'll be a bit more independent and could actually make a proper plan.
 
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Xi-Xi

Xi-Xi

The Seventh Circle's Favorite Witch (Fae/Faer)
Nov 19, 2025
248
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I really like this scale for trying to place my emotions and level of distress.

Where are you guys today?

edit: a couple of people are saying 10, keep in mind this means that you're literally trying to kill yourself right now

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Can't see the image, so I'm just going to take a random guess and say 4
 
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yume_

Coffee addict
Dec 8, 2025
55
7

But I don't do risky things. If I'm going to risk my life I might as well go all in 😆
 
graveflower

graveflower

druidess
Nov 18, 2025
12
Sitting around a 7 most days. Some days get up to an 8- crosses over to a 9 on more difficult days. Best days sit around a 5-6. Today is probably an 8.
 
Frem

Frem

Member
May 5, 2024
20
I guess 6 with some things from 7 and 8 included so probably its one of those and sadly it's the more stable half of my depression cycle
 
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somethingisntreal

somethingisntreal

The future prepared for us is a twisted joke.
Aug 30, 2025
208
I was 9 yesterday but I'm 7 today :3
 
Rihan

Rihan

Looking for courage of the heart
Jan 11, 2026
57
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Can't see the image, so I'm just going to take a random guess and say 4
This is the transcript of the scale in the image:

1. ⁠I am so happy that I will literally go insane if the happiness is sustained for any length of time.

2. ⁠I am feeling pretty rad. I vaguely recall times I've been unhappy but it feels like distant memories now. Things are looking up.

3. ⁠It is not the best day of my life… I have stuff on my mind, but I don't think of suicide, except when that one weird friend brings up stupid hypotheticals.

4. ⁠Suicide doesn't occur to me except in moments of frustration or stress. It's like a weird escape hatch my brain has decided to just go to in an attempt to escape stress. It doesn't feel serious, it's almost a joke.

5. ⁠The joke is getting really stale. Suicidal ideation and other intrusive thoughts keep happening, but I am mostly interested in other things. It's like a low key death affinity.

6. ⁠I am thinking about suicide a lot. It has become troubling. I can distract myself if I really try, however if an out of control semi was headed towards me, I might not move. I am passively suicidal.

7. ⁠I cannot stop thinking about suicide, and unfortunately I cannot distract myself. I might be doing more risky things like driving recklessly or drinking to excess. I have graduated from passively suicidal to having a death wish. I need help.

8. ⁠I am no longer fighting the thoughts, just sort of indulging in them. I sort of want to make the suicide plan, but I am stopping myself. I am holding on, but barely. It isn't safe for me to be alone. I am suicidal.

9. ⁠I am actively making a plan to end my life. I am telling people goodbye, settling accounts, and starting to write THE note. I am actively suicidal. I need to tell someone.

10. ⁠I am actively trying to kill myself. If I do not get medical attention it is very likely I will die.
 
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|nobody|

Member
Dec 8, 2025
10
Probably an 8. Lowest I've been in the last year is probably a 5.5, in the last month since I made my decision it's probably been a 7 at lowest
Spent two or so weeks frying my brain with 6g of ketamine and ripping a DMT cart and now I'm at a sustainable 5

??????

Not gonna give this a blanket recommendation but if you already want to die then giving yourself an NDE several times a day for a while probably isn't the worst thing in the world
 
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Davee

Member
May 1, 2025
9
Been a 9 for a good while now, just passing time until i fall into 10...
 
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somethingisntreal

The future prepared for us is a twisted joke.
Aug 30, 2025
208
Like a solid 7. I have been rewatching avatar the last airbender to stop myself from spiralling i haven't felt real in a few days now
 
RedFruit

RedFruit

Red Fruit.
Feb 17, 2026
70
9. I'm planning on buying my ticket to Florida tomorrow where I will CTB.
 

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