Discussion Where are you on the Emmengard Suicide Scale today?

[Preh1storic_Rib]

6, but I am also finalizing my plan and writing notes slowly. kinda oscillating between it and 9.

 

[wantingdignity]

4-5 today.

 

[Unhumanly.]

5, although, thinking of suicide as an escape is not like a joke to me but a genuine desire to escape my frustrations and the weight of being relied to (that would make me selfish),

 

[angelalexandra]

probably around an 8 and a half today, ive got a lot of things set up and ready to go but ive sort of put finding a viable method on hold for a while now just to see how my new living situation plays out (or at the very least, im just morbidly curious to see how its going to fall apart)

 

[notreallybored]

ב''ה, those days where there's nothing to feel good about and yet G-d is somehow saving the actual depression for if things get even worse.. meh.

 

[bgd2022]

6 to 9 depending on the last time I stubbed my toe. Seriously though baseline 6 and depending on how inconvenient or emotional the last thing to happen was will push it up to 7 to 9. On average I'd say 8. Only been a 10 a handful of times the attempts just didn't pan out.

 

[RoseGirl]

Over the course of a week I'll typically vary from 2-8. Rn I'm abt a 3

 

[Archness]

Today was pretty decent, I guess I'd consider it a 4-5. I'm just really good at dissociating and becoming numb to those kinds of thoughts. Often I wish I could just drop dead on-the-spot sometimes, & feeling that I might as well ctb /w how much I'm just fucking doomed and useless is inescapable. Sometimes it's higher, but usually it's 4-5 because it's an objectively "good" NEET life I have where nothing happens and I do nothing about it until it falls apart.

Even then, the baseline is rising, slowly, steadily, imperceptibly slow even. But it only needs a trigger, first fast, then all at once.

 

[thetruetato]

I'd say an 8.5-9 rn.

 

[Pale_Rider]

Ill say Im a 6, but I have paused planning kind of. I went to mental health yesterday, so im giving that a chance for now. Plus I think being able to say out loud to another human what goes on in my head helped.

 

[Valhala]

6 - 8

 

[vadim]

About a 7. I'm not actively suicidal but I feel like there's no way out of the mess I've made of my life besides suicide and I want to end it all. I've been self harming more recently.

 

[UserFromNowhere]

I cycle between 6 and 8. A week or two ago it got so bad that 9 was in play as I was actively writing a suicide note, but due to not having any reliable methods, it gradually subsided.

 

[chainsofjudecca]

9. I know exactly what method I'm going to use but I'm just waiting for the right time. Definitely some time this year, before its over.

I've seen a shift in myself. When I first joined in 2021 I believe I was actually at a 6. I had talked about CTB and my suffering but not *really* thought about it. Now death is on my mind 24/7. I go to work, go home, sleep a dreamless sleep and repeat. But its all just mechanical memory, like an insect. There is nothing I enjoy anymore, even simple pleasures. Nothing there. I am a husk.

 

[teaganlmao]

Ranges from 6 to 8. But everytime it gets more intense.

 

[Britney Spears]

9-10

 

[Ijustcantanymore]

6 is my baseline. But I often also find myself reaching 8 a lot of the time.

 

[cactusflower]

8 today

 

[Cirno]

Between 6-9 constantly

 

[itsoverforme303]

9 for a while

 

[drella]

4 by day then 8/9 by night

 

[L9my]

8-9

 

[CerebralVortex]

Probably about a 9.5?

 

[L9my]

Probably about a 9.5?

loving the profile picture

 

[daysfeel]

6 to 7

 

[SchizoGymnast]

I'm at a 4.

 

[darkandtwisty]

Hey everyone. I haven't been on since September of 2024. I thought I was getting better, but it turns out I'm not.
I am sitting at a 9. There's a lot of shit going on and I'm in the middle. I truly feel if I take myself out of the equation, those closest to me will be better off and I'll finally be free.

 

[astonishedturnip]

4, but 8 at the slightest fucking push. Ugh.

 

[SuicideKitty]

Solid 9. Just a few days...

 

[ashendreams]

8.5 i guess. but been at a 9 for the last week so i guess its an improvement. dont think ive ever been below a 5 at any point