When you were a kid or teen, did an adult you looked up to ctb?

[Kramer]

My friend's dad shot himself in the chest in his bed. His wife found him dead. He was the coolest guy ever. I never forgot him.

 

[Shades of Grey]

When I was a teenager, a man I viewed as a father figure died by suicide in a very public way. I was devastated.

While losing him in that way probably did make the idea of dying by my own hand a bit more accessible, I'd already been chronically suicidal for some time when it happened.

 

[Good4Nothing]

Yes. My dad's best friend shot himself in the head when I was around 13. I grew up shooting and hunting with him. He was a Marine, and really cool.

My scout master killed himself with exhaust from his car when I was 14. He had been fucking his daughter, and she'd starting talking about it. I never really looked up to him, though. He was strange. Of course, now I know why...

 

[GoneGoneGone]

I wasn't precisely in my teens (late teens - early adulthood), but I heard of a guy in my hometown who was the brother of a very rich woman and had hanged himself due to debts. I don't know what went on between the two of them but she seemed to know that he had financial problems and never offered to bail him out. I don't know. A very strange story.

Edit: She knew about his financial problems, so this just goes to show that not even family is there in times of hardship

 

[Time to fly]

Yes my uncle...hose in exhaust pipe and sat in his garage...I was 6 he was the only one in my whole family I liked

 

[sadworld]

I'm sorry for all of your losses

 

[Okami]

My mother by overdosing. My grandmother tried with the same method, though she was stopped.

 

[Moon Flower]

My parents both shot themselves, but idk if you could really call me a kid/teen. I was 18 for my dad and 21 for my mom

 

[Kramer]

My parents both shot themselves, but idk if you could really call me a kid/teen. I was 18 for my dad and 21 for my mom

What's holding you back?

 

[Sprite_Geist]

Late teenage years. After experiencing much unhappiness stretching all of the way back to childhood - the thoughts of suicide just manifested themselves one day.

 

[cyan]

When I was 13 my dad ctb.

It made me sad for such a long time, him ctb'ing, but now as an adult prepping to ctb I realize how brave he was. I understand his choice.

 

[sufferingalways]

When I was small I learned that the family dentist was so distraught from losing his wife that he had ctb. I was only 9.
This dentist was somehow more to his patients than others. The kind personable touch. So when my father mentioned it and I cried, he was surprised my reaction. I think I was too.

 

[Dark Spring]

When I was 8 years old my godfather, a great person whom I loved very much, committed suicide in his room by shooting himself in the head. It wasn't until I was 21 that my parents told me it was a suicide. I grew up believing that he had died of liver disease. Learning that he had decided to kill himself devastated me, but I understand that it was a decision he made in order to have some peace of mind.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

When I was a kid or teen all the people I looked up to started dying of drug overdoses. I still thought they were the coolest fucks around and I could only be so lucky to follow them in that aspect.

 

[Soul]

My parents both shot themselves, but idk if you could really call me a kid/teen. I was 18 for my dad and 21 for my mom

I'm sorry.
My family (both immediate and extended) was suicide prone. I was too young to remember my parents' deaths and none of the others were people I thought of as cool.

 

[Moon Flower]

What's holding you back?

Now, my significant other. Dude's damn near precognitive when it comes to my mental state somehow. I was getting ready to ctb with sn once and he woke up in a panic attack terrified for me, I had never even told anyone I was planning to that night

I'm sorry.
My family (both immediate and extended) was suicide prone. I was too young to remember my parents' deaths and none of the others were people I thought of as cool.

Yeah I wasn't super super close to my parents prior, but I did at least end things on good terms with them so that's always a comfort