When will this end?-

[Priestess]

I'm having lifelong cancer treatment, with a ton of disabling side effects. I've had a stroke which has left me partially sighted and with problems with balance and co ordination. I have excruciating migraines. And now they suspect I have a heart condition and want to do horrible tests like shoving a wire in my artery. I'm sick, exhausted and in pain all the time. I'm in poverty because I can't work and live in a bad home situation. But I've already tried once with an aspirin OD. It was very painful and just landed me in ICU for 5 days. I want to go to dignitas but they charge a fortune. On several occasions I met people online who said they'd help me but all either let me down or had a stupid plan or turned out to be pervs. I just want a serious person with a proper plan to help. My situation is not temporary, it won't get better. I am 40 years old this year and have wanted to ctb for most of my life.

 

[Aisley]

That's horrible. And the doctors will just let you know when they're done with you, I suppose, then it's good luck, nothing more we can do, well that pain shouldn't be happening, so it's most likely not even real.
Here's one of the most inspiring threads on this site; made me rethink my whole plan.

Https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/leaving-tonight.3063.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds so horrible what you are going through, I hope that you eventually find freedom from the torture you experience.

 

[Priestess]

That's horrible. And the doctors will just let you know when they're done with you, I suppose, then it's good luck, nothing more we can do, well that pain shouldn't be happening, so it's most likely not even real.
Here's one of the most inspiring threads on this site; made me rethink my whole plan.

Https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/leaving-tonight.3063.

It says the page could not be found. any chance of a cut and paste?

 

[Praestat_Mori]

It's horrible what you have to endure. I hope you can find peace, wishing you all the best!

It says the page could not be found. any chance of a cut and paste?

Leaving tonight

I'm currently eating my (hopefully) last meal -pasta followed by a vegan ice cream sundae- at a jazz bar above a little independent cinema near the location I picked. Today I will start my BBQ probably around 11 o'clock UK time and hope to be dead by the early hours. Within a couple of days my...

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[Aisley]

Sorry, I'm a bit of an idiot, limping with a tablet here

Leaving tonight

I'm currently eating my (hopefully) last meal -pasta followed by a vegan ice cream sundae- at a jazz bar above a little independent cinema near the location I picked. Today I will start my BBQ probably around 11 o'clock UK time and hope to be dead by the early hours. Within a couple of days my...

sanctioned-suicide.net

It's horrible what you have to endure. I hope you can find peace, wishing you all the best!

Leaving tonight

I'm currently eating my (hopefully) last meal -pasta followed by a vegan ice cream sundae- at a jazz bar above a little independent cinema near the location I picked. Today I will start my BBQ probably around 11 o'clock UK time and hope to be dead by the early hours. Within a couple of days my...

sanctioned-suicide.net

O my god, thank you. Why's everything so haaaard????

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm so sorry. I don't know- there's just something about the threads where people are in chronic pain that really get to me. Like doctors can actually SEE a person is suffering. We belong to such a barbaric society that allows this- even encorages it. Live as long as you possibly can. Doesn't matter what quality of life you have. It's just inhumane.

Not that it will be much comfort to you but I know two people who had that wire in the artery thing done and for them at least- apparently it wasn't as bad as it sounds. Still- I don't blame you. Who wants to go through all that when they don't want to live as it is? I'm so sorry.

 

[Priestess]

I'm so sorry. I don't know- there's just something about the threads where people are in chronic pain that really get to me. Like doctors can actually SEE a person is suffering. We belong to such a barbaric society that allows this- even encorages it. Live as long as you possibly can. Doesn't matter what quality of life you have. It's just inhumane.

Not that it will be much comfort to you but I know two people who had that wire in the artery thing done and for them at least- apparently it isn't as bad as it sounds. Still- I don't blame you. Who wants to go through all that when they don't want to live as it is? I'm so sorry.

Yeah even if they could do something to improve my heart, I still have all the other problems that can't be fixed.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yeah even if they could do something to improve my heart, I still have all the other problems that can't be fixed.

I just don't know how they expect people to just put up with incurable things. I'm sure they wouldn't!

 

[Priestess]

I just don't know how they expect people to just put up with incurable things. I'm sure they wouldn't!

And people are so patronising, with the "just find something to live for!" Like bitch I'm in agony, I can't see properly, I have cancer and migraines and my heart is fucked up. But I'm sure getting a hobby would really help! I had one dipshit therapist tell me that a woman she knows was depressed but now has a purpose - she got a dog and she lives to walk the dog. I'm sure walking a dog would solve all my problems! These idiots will come out with any nonsense rather than admit some people are better off dead.

 

[Forever Sleep]

And people are so patronising, with the "just find something to live for!" Like bitch I'm in agony, I can't see properly, I have cancer and migraines and my heart is fucked up. But I'm sure getting a hobby would really help! I had one dipshit therapist tell me that a woman she knows was depressed but now has a purpose - she got a dog and she lives to walk the dog. I'm sure walking a dog would solve all my problems! These idiots will come out with any nonsense rather than admit some people are better off dead.

Yeah- absolutely. Plus- there seems to be some sort of element of surprise that someone in chronic pain every single day WOULD be depressed- like- duh- do you enjoy feeling ill?!!

My Grandma suffered terribly with her health. Her doctor refered her to a colleague without telling her he was a therapist. She was very unimpressed. He started asking her about her childhood. Like- yeah- I really DON'T think that's what's troubling her! It's the fact that food is getting trapped in her intestine and rotting there. (She had diverticulitus amongst other things- poor thing- she suffered every day.)

I've always promised myself there's no way I'm going to allow that to happen to me. Screw that! I'm sorry though. It's not at all easy.

 

[LittleJem]

I've been watching Grace and Frankie on Netflix and I love the episode where Frankie assists her neighbour Babe who has cancer to die peacefully. With both edible chemicals and also helium and exit bag.

I'm sorry OP that people are patronising you and not listening.

I would probably refuse all tests and treatment. If your heart has issues that might make some ctb methods easier.

I wish the world would listen and respect us when we are done with suffering.

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