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V0latile

And God decreed, “Coronavirus spread forth!”
Sep 24, 2019
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By the way, have any of you sent a suicide note in the past but decided not to die? That would be so awkward.
 
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Hank

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Nov 29, 2018
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best would be a delayed email. This you can cancel when you fail, if you set a decent buffertime for yourself.

Many email providers offer this option, gmail is one of them.
 
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Daniela

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best would be a delayed email. This you can cancel when you fail, if you set a decent buffertime for yourself.

Many email providers offer this option, gmail is one of them.

What if I want to delete all my email accounts?
 
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Hank

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What if I want to delete all my email accounts?
Well, you can, right? delete all mail and/or cancel your account. And/or create a new account just for this purpose
 
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toomuchgrief

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If you writing in your OP that if you send a suicide note to your folks and then not go through with the suicide, it will be awkward. This prove that you not ready to CTB, you not 100% want to end your life.

If you not ready, don't tell them anything. If you want to tell them, after you set a date, example, Jan xx date 2020 is your CTB date. Just tell your folks that, if by Feb next year you don't hear me call you or come visit you, then you know I'm in a place somewhere very far away, like in heaven. Hopefully they get the hint.
If next year you still call them, great, you still alive. If not, they don't hear from you, perhaps they think back on what you say and know that you gone/suicide.
 
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V0latile

And God decreed, “Coronavirus spread forth!”
Sep 24, 2019
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If you writing in your OP that if you send a suicide note to your folks and then not go through with the suicide, it will be awkward. This prove that you not ready to CTB, you not 100% want to end your life.

If you not ready, don't tell them anything. If you want to tell them, after you set a date, example, Jan xx date 2020 is your CTB date. Just tell your folks that, if by Feb next year you don't hear me call you or come visit you, then you know I'm in a place somewhere very far away, like in heaven. Hopefully they get the hint.
If next year you still call them, great, you still alive. If not, they don't hear from you, perhaps they think back on what you say and know that you gone/suicide.
Mine would be devastated to hear that they may not hear from in x amount of months cause I'm dead. Jesus Christ!
What if I want to delete all my email accounts?
Do you think people will hack your email when you're dead? Just erase your smart phone and destroy any hard drives before you go.
 
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Nov 17, 2019
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By the way, have any of you sent a suicide note in the past but decided not to die? That would be so awkward.

see my thought on the matter is have them written and hidden somewhere. When you do plan to ctb,leave a note on you to say where these suicide notes are.That way you haven't got to worry about emails not sending or sending etc
 
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My plan is a letter, the letter contains my reasoning behind me leaving the world behind. Then, I have included notes on my funeral separate as the letter is for him (my OH), and no one else.

The letter will be left on the kitchen table, he works 20 minutes away, I live near several wooded areas so by the time I text him telling him I am sorry, that there is a letter on the kitchen table and to look after the dog and he actually sees it, I will be long gone (at least distance-wise).

My location is turned off on my phone and is protected with a VPN so no way of finding me that way, I've debated back and forth whether to bring my phone and considered leaving it on the kitchen table, too. However, I do wanna make sure I've enough time to get to my spot before he gets the message. My spot is an hour's drive away. **Edit: I would turn my phone off after the text anyway. My reasoning for leaving it behind is so he has the numbers of friends I'd like to attend my funeral if they aren't too pissed off with me.**

I dunno whether this is useful to you, I don't plan on leaving my dad a letter, he'll get an, "I'm sorry" text if he's lucky. My mom passed away so she already knows the date of my departure. I've had several mediums tell me that she is telling me, "Don't be so fuckin' stupid, don't be a fool. He's going to come back to you." They've even given me a timeframe, but it's a very long time away and I can't take this pain much longer.
 
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I'll be sending messages through snail-mail, with good reason. I see it as getting a year-long gym membership in January, I'd better use it or I'd be a silly cunt. As such, me knowing I've sent those letters (through actual mail) will be a reinforcement in getting the job done when SI kicks in. Either that or live with the shame & guilt in having told those close to me and not having gone through with it.
 
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By the way, have any of you sent a suicide note in the past but decided not to die? That would be so awkward.

I'm planning on keeping my suicide notes on my body … or near it. I made one a while ago when I thought I was going to CTB. I may have to update it if I ever get the courage to end it. I don't trust e-mail or snail mail … especially in case something goes wrong.
This is just my opinion... I don't know what method you are using, if this would even be possible. :hug:
 
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MaybeMaybeKnot

No ctrl-z when you ctb
Oct 25, 2019
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By the way, have any of you sent a suicide note in the past but decided not to die? That would be so awkward.
I didn't send one, but I safety-pinned mine to my shirt and then passed out before I could leave the house. So I was found wearing mine. It was complicated.
I'll be sending messages through snail-mail, with good reason. I see it as getting a year-long gym membership in January, I'd better use it or I'd be a silly cunt. As such, me knowing I've sent those letters (through actual mail) will be a reinforcement in getting the job done when SI kicks in. Either that or live with the shame & guilt in having told those close to me and not having gone through with it.
Making others hold the gun to your head and they don't even know it. Diabolical.
 
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I didn't send one, but I safety-pinned mine to my shirt and then passed out before I could leave the house. So I was found wearing mine. It was complicated.

Making others hold the gun to your head and they don't even know it. Diabolical.


Sorry this happened to you. :'(
 
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MaybeMaybeKnot

No ctrl-z when you ctb
Oct 25, 2019
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Sorry this happened to you. :'(
I appreciate it, but it's cool. It scratched the itch and I got it out of my system for a while. But in the moment, it was a really bad night, and months of not being trusted got old.
 
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I appreciate it, but it's cool. It scratched the itch and I got it out of my system for a while. But in the moment, it was a really bad night, and months of not being trusted got old.

I'm really hoping when I do it I will CURE the itch. :wink:
 
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GreyMagic

GreyMagic

The more you care, the more you have to lose.
Feb 21, 2019
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Does anybody know if ProtonMail offers a similar service aka delayed emails? As I can't find a feature that would allow me to do it.
 
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angele

gay trans man (he/him)
Nov 20, 2019
71
I'm gonna use a delayed email service to send an email to my closest friend containing my final letters to everyone along with their contact info. I just have to trust that he'll honor my wishes and send out my goodbyes...

I'm gonna preface the email with "please don't read unless I succeeded with killing myself" so (hopefully) no one sees my final goodbyes if I somehow fuck up ctb...
 

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