Yeah, I used to be best friends w/ my husband of 20 yrs, so I told him everything. There is honestly not one tiny thing he did not know, and I never lied. But he shut me out and sided against me when this all happened, so though I still say everything when I feel the need to, he is no longer the person he was before. He turned into an enemy that threatened for the last 3 yrs to have me committed. He is coming around now--sort of more friendly with me--when I have pain levels down and am acting more like a "human being" instead of someone in terrible pain. But I am open enough with him (and my mother in conversations or emails) to literally walk around the house testing my suicide methods right in front of him if he is in the room and complaining that I am failing, and neither do anything but ignore me or tell me to go someplace else and practice it. When I am screaming and crying in genuine pain, though, that is when they make the "committed" threats. Not when I am trying to kill myself. They don't like how I am in this pain or believe it is as bad as it is. It is very odd, indeed.
But I have said before, I am getting a lot of "others have it worse, so just deal with it" from them. And I think they do not think I am being serious about suicide, since I have been though a lot in the past and did not kill myself, despite that I have told them I have genuinely tried and failed a number of times, and that I am on an online forum to try to get it right one day. Sort of makes me think they really don't care anymore about me, but then I think it is just that they don't know how to react to the very real situation that I am disabled and in tremendous pain.