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[Kitsunekia90]

good evening, I'm new. I'm a 34 year old Italian girl and I can't live anymore, I've tried therapy, psychotherapy, even hospitalizations. I've been sick since I was 15 but since 2021 everything has gotten worse quickly. until last November since then I haven't gone out anymore, I can't wash myself, I can't do anything that I at least tried to do before. the therapy doesn't work and my only desire is to never wake up again. I have a beautiful family who has tried to help me until now but I have no life. I have nothing I don't have a home, a job, a purpose I spend my days feeling empty and crying. I only know the classic suicides hanging, throwing yourself, stabbing yourself, but I know that with psychotropic drugs and benzodiazepines you don't die. I want something that makes me fall asleep and never wake up again, I know that I'm asking for a lot but it shouldn't be that painful.

 

[NeoN0va]

From various research, this site tends to describe SN as quite painless, and after all that's also the one I chose for my ctb method. Sorry to hear your story, It must be really tough.

 

[Kitsunekia90]

From various research, this site tends to describe SN as quite painless, and after all that's also the one I chose for my ctb method. Sorry to hear your story, It must be really tough.

thank you, I think that if one has to live feeling bad every day (it's not life). What is SN? How can I get it? How is it used? Can I find it in Italy or do they ship it? Sorry for all the questions but I'm ignorant, I thought I could do away with psychotropic drugs... but that's not the case

 

[LunarLight]

SN Bible Sodium Nitrite Method (Comprehensive Guide SN Method)

Sodium Nitrite (SN) Method Introduction This document is a compilation of different sn information, members inputs, important posts related to sn, recorded suicide cases related to sn, different research on sn and so on. This document also give a full understanding of SN, what it is, how it...

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[FuneralCry]

I also wish for a death like never waking again, in fact to never suffer again in this existence is all I hope for, I hope you find the peace you search for.

 

[Kitsunekia90]

I also wish for a death like never waking again, in fact to never suffer again in this existence is all I hope for, I hope you find the peace you search for.

I hope so for you too if that's what you're looking for. I've never gone so far as to search on the internet. I love my family but they haven't lived what I feel for a lifetime now. Then what I do can't be considered life

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SN Bible Sodium Nitrite Method (Comprehensive Guide SN Method)

Sodium Nitrite (SN) Method Introduction This document is a compilation of different sn information, members inputs, important posts related to sn, recorded suicide cases related to sn, different research on sn and so on. This document also give a full understanding of SN, what it is, how it...

sanctioned-suicide.net

thanks I'm reading everything slowly to understand. from your description you help but you've never managed to do it? it's a bit of my fear in addition to getting everything. especially SN. could you help me?

 

[Kitsunekia90]

I can't stand to stay in this bed anymore, crying and feeling my chest explode. Yesterday I swallowed a whole bottle of diazepam and only slept 2 hours. Then during the day I stayed in bed hoping not to wake up but every half hour or hour I woke up :(