
Pops
Member
- Apr 3, 2018
- 13
My memory's a bit hazy on the timeline of this but I'll do my best:
I remember finding out about SN years ago and could only find one solid study/case of suicide by it at the time and no one was for sure about the effects it would have. The best guesses I had were just vaguely based around looking at it from a scientific perspective and we used to chat about it in an old server. I attempted by placing them into capsules for delayed release but wanted to use sleeping pills beforehand so I'd be knocked out in case there was any pain. Naturally sleeping pills make you sleep so I didn't go through with that attempt (lol).
So I gave up on that idea, attempted and failed other ways, eventually went into recovery, left the SS circles for a few years, and here we are today.
First thing I noticed was a lot of mentioning of SN on here, which I found odd as there wasn't much known about it's use when I tried. So I googled SN and suicide and there's quite a few articles about the rise of its use and people ctb-ing etc, all from 2018 - 2021. I ended up going back through old chat logs and best I can tell, I was talking about it in mid 2017.. Also, best I can tell, PPH didn't mention it until a 2018 release... So naturally I've been beating myself up all week thinking that I'm responsible for pulling the trigger on all those people through the spread of information.
It's also entirely possible that others were talking about it long before me and info just want public or well known.
Idk. It's just screwing with my head a bit and I just needed to share and ask the question just to get it out of my head.
I remember finding out about SN years ago and could only find one solid study/case of suicide by it at the time and no one was for sure about the effects it would have. The best guesses I had were just vaguely based around looking at it from a scientific perspective and we used to chat about it in an old server. I attempted by placing them into capsules for delayed release but wanted to use sleeping pills beforehand so I'd be knocked out in case there was any pain. Naturally sleeping pills make you sleep so I didn't go through with that attempt (lol).
So I gave up on that idea, attempted and failed other ways, eventually went into recovery, left the SS circles for a few years, and here we are today.
First thing I noticed was a lot of mentioning of SN on here, which I found odd as there wasn't much known about it's use when I tried. So I googled SN and suicide and there's quite a few articles about the rise of its use and people ctb-ing etc, all from 2018 - 2021. I ended up going back through old chat logs and best I can tell, I was talking about it in mid 2017.. Also, best I can tell, PPH didn't mention it until a 2018 release... So naturally I've been beating myself up all week thinking that I'm responsible for pulling the trigger on all those people through the spread of information.
It's also entirely possible that others were talking about it long before me and info just want public or well known.
Idk. It's just screwing with my head a bit and I just needed to share and ask the question just to get it out of my head.