When are you going to do it?

[RM5998]

Probably in November. Not immediately as the month starts though... can't ruin the fest for the two friends I have here.

Knowing my tendency to procrastinate, I'm probably going to take it further. I haven't even started writing the delayed emails I intend to send. I have one month of life left, and lethargy has already consumed it.

 

[Ben]

I was faced with a choise. I live, and accept that I'm a failure, and I will confirm the doubts of this user being dead. I lived y'all. I'm on a suicide forum, and I lack the strength to kill my self. The day you want to die, if it ever comes, will be clear to you. You will not spend hours trying to find the pros and cons of your method. Killing ourselves in easy. The seriousness is another subject, one that nobody here has the right to judge people on

 

[Taylored]

I've always said I was looking at October but in the past I've said it so many times. I'm hopeful I'll finish what I started in October rather than delay and delay.

 

[Duqu]

When my cat dies. Could be in 6 months, could be several years. He's 11 but he has feline leukemia (FelV) was dxed as a kitten when he got really sick and they told me he wouldn't live more than a few months and he got better! Hasn't been sick since. I had him re tested twice and he's positive but it's just weird. Usually cats don't survive with FelV. But he's my heart and soul and I can tell I'm his so yeah.

 

[bunny]

i need to get money and some materials.

 

[Anon1337]

Probably not this year. Most likely the first half of 2019, if all goes well.

 

[Jon86]

I was faced with a choise. I live, and accept that I'm a failure, and I will confirm the doubts of this user being dead. I lived y'all. I'm on a suicide forum, and I lack the strength to kill my self. The day you want to die, if it ever comes, will be clear to you. You will not spend hours trying to find the pros and cons of your method. Killing ourselves in easy. The seriousness is another subject, one that nobody here has the right to judge people on

That's very wishful thinking, I think your wrong buddy. Killing yourself is not like euthanasia with a kind doctor by your side, it's not straightforward or easy.

 

[InsidiousDormouse]

I don't have a date, it'll be once I've got all the stuff and the time feels right. Husband will be going back to work soon, so I'll be on my own a lot more and it'll be easier to do alone.

I know we argue an awful lot but it's when he's not here I realise just how few people are in my life now, less people to miss me I suppose.

Anyhow, no date, I will let you know when my time has come.

 

[Ben]

That's very wishful thinking, I think your wrong buddy. Killing yourself is not like euthanasia with a kind doctor by your side, it's not straightforward or easy.

Youve severely misunderstood me if you think I'm implying dying is Easy. I've failed it 4 times myself.

What I'm saying is, who has the want to die been successful for? It's been successful for people who want to die. You're lying to yourself if you say your method failed because of your legitimacy towards wanting to die. Everyone here wants to die, but there still alive, that right there is proof to my statement. Killing yourself is not rocket science. It's only as hard as your soul makes it. Most souls make it impossible, the proof lies in the amount of users here.

I want to die, but I now realize I don't have it within me to make it happen. You're ability to reply to that statement proves its legitimacy.

Dont tell me I think dying is easy, friend.

 

[Jon86]

Youve severely misunderstood me if you think I'm implying dying is Easy. I've failed it 4 times myself.

What I'm saying is, who has the want to die been successful for? It's been successful for people who want to die. You're lying to yourself if you say your method failed because of your legitimacy towards wanting to die. Everyone here wants to die, but there still alive, that right there is proof to my statement. Killing yourself is not rocket science. It's only as hard as your soul makes it. Most souls make it impossible, the proof lies in the amount of users here.

I want to die, but I now realize I don't have it within me to make it happen. You're ability to reply to that statement proves its legitimacy.

Dont tell me I think dying is easy, friend.

I think we are misunderstanding each other, it happens.

The idea that it will become clear in your mind/soul the day you are ready to die I believe is a false hope. I think the day it happens will start just like any other and in the moment it'll just be one hesitant 'fuck it' moment that closes the show.

 

[Ben]

I think we are misunderstanding each other, it happens.

The idea that it will become clear in your mind/soul the day you are ready to die I believe is a false hope. I think the day it happens will start just like any other and in the moment it'll just be one hesitant 'fuck it' moment that closes the show.

The "fuck it" moment. Yes. Do you now see we agree on this?

 

[Jon86]

The "fuck it" moment. Yes. Do you now see we agree on this?

I guess so.

I'll add the feeling like your ready to die, like today right now, i've felt for nearly a decade. I've felt ready to take action on those thoughts a number of times as well but in the last moment it doesn't matter what you think killing yourself is not natural and your body will say fuck that.

In this video, people are simply jumping off a 10 meter platform, simple enough, no real danger, they know that there's no danger but many still can't simply do it. The follow through of suicide is this example on steroids.

 

[Ben]

I guess so.

I'll add the feeling like your ready to die, like today right now, i've felt for nearly a decade. I've felt ready to take action on those thoughts a number of times as well but in the last moment it doesn't matter what you think killing yourself is not natural and your body will say fuck that.

In this video, people are simply jumping off a 10 meter platform, simple enough, no real danger, they know that there's no danger but many still can't simply do it. The follow through of suicide is this example on steroids.

Bruh. Honestly, I don't care to watch that video. I know what truth means to me, and im not looking to convice anybody im right.

 

[throwaway123]

I was faced with a choise. I live, and accept that I'm a failure, and I will confirm the doubts of this user being dead. I lived y'all. I'm on a suicide forum, and I lack the strength to kill my self. The day you want to die, if it ever comes, will be clear to you. You will not spend hours trying to find the pros and cons of your method. Killing ourselves in easy. The seriousness is another subject, one that nobody here has the right to judge people on

Don't be so hard on yourself Ben.
At least you were brave enough to come here and admit your own failure. Not everyone can do that.

 

[DreamFreedom]

Thank god I live in a country where you can't just buy a gun in the post !!!!

Honestly I wished it was that easy to buy a gun here. Things would be so much simpler.

 

[Mel93]

I will do it next year without a partner. If i can find a partner with experience i will do it earlier. It depends on it.

 

[Schopenhauer]

Next Thursday, if I can manage it. I want to do partial suspension hanging, although I still have some misgivings about the methods. I've been reading some threads on this forum, and watching videos. I definitely want to be gone.

It's too bad I live in a country where I can't legally buy a gun...

 

[CRM]

I don't want to give a date unless I'm absolutely sure, but I'm thinking this winter. It depends on how much strain I'm under at that time. I'm going to need a boost from stress to go through with it, I think.

 

[Kahrairah]

Soon, hopefully.
There are days when it's tucked away and then there are days when it's sitting right in front of me. I don't know when I'll ever be ready.

 

[DreamFreedom]

It's weird. There are days where I'm not convinced i have the right method, or I don't even know if it's gonna happen at all. And then there are days where I think
I don't care how I go. I don't care about the pain it could cause. I just want to do it. Anything.
I guess some days are more desperate that others.

 

[Desperate_Soul]

At this point, it seems like never.

 

[weedoge]

I guess so.

I'll add the feeling like your ready to die, like today right now, i've felt for nearly a decade. I've felt ready to take action on those thoughts a number of times as well but in the last moment it doesn't matter what you think killing yourself is not natural and your body will say fuck that.

In this video, people are simply jumping off a 10 meter platform, simple enough, no real danger, they know that there's no danger but many still can't simply do it. The follow through of suicide is this example on steroids.

I'm really sorry but this video seems misleading as heck to me. I went to an outdoor activities place up in scotland years ago and there was something similar to this. Instead of a board above a swimming pool, it was what I recall to be a double height telephone pole that you climbed (with a harness on, yes, but I feel this only affects you in the same way that you know it's as safe as diving 10m into a swimming pool). I wasn't suicidal at this time and I had absolutely no trouble jumping off that thing. The harness was attached to some pulley system that slowed you as you reached the ground and I was even able to land standing. My sister did the same thing immediately afterwards and was pretty terrified, screamed on her way down and fell on her ass.

I don't think this video shows really anything at all.

 

[406blue]

When i get the point where i can negate all the worry and abstract myself from it enough. When i get sick of the turmoil inside, when i'm diagnosed with a terminal illness if all else fails. Perhaps when i get to 2000 likes in this forum...

 

[Deleted member 1496]

After all the special days that people remember (e.g., holidays). That way when my family are remembering or enjoying the holidays, I won't ruin it for them. (Aside: God, I wish I had gone no contact from family when I was young and had the energy to start somewhere new. Maybe I would have met better people and learned that my feelings and wants matter.)