Whats your story ?

[Anyara]

That is horrible I'm sorry about that I wish people could live they're life how they want to without being judge and hated. one of my biggest pet peeves are homophobic people. people should never feel they should have to hide who they are because this world is so cruel to understand that we can't all be the same and what that girl did to you is so sick. Sounds like you been through so much I'm so sorry.

Thank you, thats kind of you to say

 

[xonnia]

slow and steady failures after failures in my mind, and losing my life's biggest dream.. now just lonely and don't see a point in doing the living thing anymore.

 

[Nem]

Well, since you asked.
My ex was a control freak-asshole, I don't just blame her, she IS responsible for my near-death experience and subsequent fuck around. My Dr, hospital (for not taking my reaction seriously-fucking assholes), pharmacy for not checking interactions but my Dr (Fucking goof) and my ex (Fucking bitch) are solely responsible for the damage I suffered. Never mind the fact I'm still alive...it's even more amazing that they are still alive!

 

[deathoverlife]

there is much to say but would like to keep it short. Loss of of loved one... scares from the past..missirable life am going thru right now and the fear of situations getting worse and worse...

 

[Retched]

Life long suicidal thoughts....leading to a series of nervous breakdowns. A prolonged illness, and then I went off all psych meds, ironically lucky to be alive, however, it messed with my head so badly I can hardly function and just want to be dead. Failed suicide attempt (very poorly planned and cost me my car and my livelihood. So medically in debt now, all for nothing. I dunno. I'm comfortable in chaos it seems, though I desperately just want peace and to CBT, I will have to wait for some time to do it. Glad I found this site so I can learn how to plan.....or just be able to talk about the gaping wounds that being suicidal leaves- some people who are not going to judge.

 

[Nem]

Well, since you asked.
My ex was a control freak-asshole, I don't just blame her, she IS responsible for my near-death experience and subsequent fuck around. My Dr, hospital (for not taking my reaction seriously-fucking assholes), pharmacy for not checking interactions but my Dr (Fucking goof) and my ex (Fucking bitch) are solely responsible for the damage I suffered. Never mind the fact I'm still alive...it's even more amazing that they are still alive!

Sorry for the profanity, my ex was helpful somewhat in my recovery but my Dr nearly killed me with bad advice and he was careless prescribing meds without a doubt. The valium that was prescribed for way too long was a pivotal factor, the Dr never warned me I would have dangerous withdrawals upon tapering and my fault in the matter was not mentioning to my Dr that I wanted off of the stuff. This was a very terrible experience that nearly cost me my life. Sad

 

[Aesthler]

While it's true I've been suicidal before and depressed, there's been times when I was functional, happy and felt like life was worth living. I make a lot of bad choices though, and that leads to a cycle I keep finding myself stuck in. I just want to end the chaos I cause myself and others around me, it's really as simple as that.

 

[Rocky M]

What triggered you guys to the suicidal stage ? I'm just curios I know everyone may not be comfortable with sharing they're story which is okay just wanna see if whether I can relate to some of you or not. Plus I've always been a good listener.

Mental and emotional abuse, guilt and now spite. I've attempted twice, once before joining this site and once shortly after joining. I was caught both times. My next attempt is in December and I need to be patient or else I'll fail again. You know the phrase "third time's a charm", I hope it's true

 

[longingforrelease]

I have about 26 years of fuckery, so here's some cliffsnotes
-grew up in a religious cult around a lot of grown men who wanted to marry me...when I was a child/very young adult
-both of my parents are narcissists
-my dad honestly believes that he could fly into people's houses at night thanks to God
-mom blamed me when I was 4 after being molested
-she did have the decency to teach me how to act around the pedophiles in their stupid cult
-because of this fuckery I was on drugs for most of my teen years, but was lucky enough to clean up before college
-in college, cue 1 rape, abusive boyfriends, suicide attempts and more fuckery
-after college my neighbors stalked me, robbed me and I had to sleep with my gun and a hammer under my pillow until they were busted for drugs
-now recently I gave birth to my dead baby in my bathroom and now I have PTSD.

thank you for sharing that. You have indeed endured a great deal of suffering. I hope you find peace