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dmoroden

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Feb 13, 2019
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Hi there!

so, i was reading about it and i find it like the easiest way to do it, right?
its easy to get what you need, and it would be a peacefull gone away? So why its not the most common way to do it? i would like to know your thoughts about it since im considering it with high hopes.

(sorry for my english, im from south america)
 
Menschenfeind

Menschenfeind

Jan 25, 2019
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Tried it last August. Couldn´t stand the heat. I thought it would be quick and peaceful.
 
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Menschenfeind

Jan 25, 2019
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were you in a car/room/tent?
In my bathroom with two grills and a taped door. Not my method I guess. I´m trying partial: Last time my feet broke away, but I was conscious.
 
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Trulysorry

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Dec 31, 2018
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In my bathroom with two grills and a taped door. Not my method I guess. I´m trying partial: Last time my feet broke away, but I was conscious.

How long were you in the bathroom before deciding it wasn't your method?
 
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Menschenfeind

Menschenfeind

Jan 25, 2019
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How long were you in the bathroom before deciding it wasn't your method?
I guess around 15-20 minutes. Time flies in that moment.
 
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couragetodie

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Jan 2, 2019
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I guess around 15-20 minutes. Time flies in that moment.

I think that's why people use pills and booze so they can sleep through the discomfort of the heat. trying to weigh all these methods. partial seems ok except I see a lot of people here say they can't knock themselves out. seems like there's a recurring theme here.
 
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Menschenfeind

Jan 25, 2019
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I think that's why people use pills and booze so they can sleep through the discomfort of the heat. trying to weigh all these methods. partial seems ok except I see a lot of people here say they can't knock themselves out. seems like there's a recurring theme here.
That´s true. Stupid and with no effort. In some way, you have to earn the death.
 
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couragetodie

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Jan 2, 2019
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I have been reading through the CO mega thread. Seems like three biggest problems with this method: (1) improper sealing (2) heat discomfort (3) difficulty isolating oneself. I like the peacefulness of a tent in the woods by oneself. But I would be concerned of improper sealing. The car seems a good choice if one can find seclusion. I would have to rent a car — I wonder how much damage there would be to the car. If I fail, would suck to have to pay a lot to fix the damage.
 
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couragetodie

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Jan 2, 2019
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That´s true. Stupid and with no effort. In some way, you have to earn the death.

Right exactly. I mean, if we could just jump off a very tall bridge, death would be assured. The thought of those final moments alive on the ground makes me avoid this one. I don't have a gun and can't get one (at least not legally) as I was hospitalized. Full hanging seems painful as hell. I worry the Nembutal method isn't enough of a guaranteed death.

For someone like me, I am depressed af and don't have much motivation to do much or anything these days. Killing oneself in a proper manner requires planning and study. As you say to earn it. It's so easy to say I want to just kill my self, what a pain in the ass to make it happen. I find it incredible that some people have such positive attitudes on this site. I feel like if I could be positive like they are I wouldn't want to CTB in the first place.

I also imagine that a lot of this is SI related. In my life when I really wanted something, I generally got it due to focus and effort. A part of me doesn't want to die but my life is so effed up that I see no other choice in the matter.
 
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couragetodie

Student
Jan 2, 2019
154
The CO method in a properly sealed tent in the woods seems like the right method. How to make this happen is what I need to figure out.
 
Menschenfeind

Menschenfeind

Jan 25, 2019
131
Right exactly. I mean, if we could just jump off a very tall bridge, death would be assured. The thought of those final moments alive on the ground makes me avoid this one. I don't have a gun and can't get one (at least not legally) as I was hospitalized. Full hanging seems painful as hell. I worry the Nembutal method isn't enough of a guaranteed death.

For someone like me, I am depressed af and don't have much motivation to do much or anything these days. Killing oneself in a proper manner requires planning and study. As you say to earn it. It's so easy to say I want to just kill my self, what a pain in the ass to make it happen. I find it incredible that some people have such positive attitudes on this site. I feel like if I could be positive like they are I wouldn't want to CTB in the first place.

I also imagine that a lot of this is SI related. In my life when I really wanted something, I generally got it due to focus and effort. A part of me doesn't want to die but my life is so effed up that I see no other choice in the matter.
Exactly! Attempt after attempt: The so called "good side" wins. Everything seems so easy when you´re facing the death. Any problem can be solved, basic therapist talks inside yourself. Then you gain an extra will for the next couple days. Repeat.
 
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dmoroden

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Feb 13, 2019
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Right exactly. I mean, if we could just jump off a very tall bridge, death would be assured. The thought of those final moments alive on the ground makes me avoid this one. I don't have a gun and can't get one (at least not legally) as I was hospitalized. Full hanging seems painful as hell. I worry the Nembutal method isn't enough of a guaranteed death.

For someone like me, I am depressed af and don't have much motivation to do much or anything these days. Killing oneself in a proper manner requires planning and study. As you say to earn it. It's so easy to say I want to just kill my self, what a pain in the ass to make it happen. I find it incredible that some people have such positive attitudes on this site. I feel like if I could be positive like they are I wouldn't want to CTB in the first place.

I also imagine that a lot of this is SI related. In my life when I really wanted something, I generally got it due to focus and effort. A part of me doesn't want to die but my life is so effed up that I see no other choice in the matter.
I´ve been fighting the depression for many years now... i feel same way... no motivation at all. And i feel i cant keep fighting it. Waking up and facing every day its like to face an army all over and over... im really tired. Feeling i have no more fuel for this...

btw, what CTB and SI stands for?
 
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dmoroden

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Feb 13, 2019
53
Im thinking about the CO method with some sleeping pills to face de disconfort... maybe ill get a hotel room far from home and fill a bath with cold water. The tent idea its really good, but i imgaine sealing a tent is really difficult...

I´ve also texted "A" and "D", but got not answer back yet...
 

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