When I was entering university for the first time, I had the ambition to find a scientific "cure" for aging. Like be able to discover what causes aging and then engineer a solution. I quickly discovered that those I interacted with had given up hope of a cure in their lifetime in the face of difficulty and were resigned to the slow modalities, lack of exploration, and bureaucracy of the scientific community. I lasted 2 years before I completely fell apart and had to leave university. For the next 10 years, I wandered aimlessly through life, not really having a purpose. January 2020 was a turning point in my life, but that is a topic for another time.