What’s your latest deadline?

[Volatile]

Mine is middle age. After that there is no hope whatsoever. Your youth is gone forever and everything is a constant reminder of what could've been but never will be.

 

[15dec]

Right now I want to be gone by the end of February. Though if that doesn't work I'd like to be gone by, say 28, in my 40s at the latest. Growing old is not for me.

 

[siray]

I am 22 and I really don't see myself grow up to be 30 and be happy, cause I have a history of baldness in my family and I have already started losing hair on the front, and it seems like a good idea to shoot myself in the head instead of feeling sorry for myself every time I look in the mirror.

Also, where I live, it seems the economy will collapse in a few years and we are running out of water, so that would be a good incentive to CTB. Sooner better than later. In my last minutes, I will probably realize how futile it was to worry about anything, and that it was nothing but my biological programming that kept me going, and it all amounted to absolutely nothing. Fucking shame.

 

[MMNZ91]

I feel like I've been on ss for months turns out it hasn't even a month to date yet, I'll be ctb before then (hopefully)
/edit
I read your question wrong. Friday latest.

 

[Trulysorry]

Mid to late February .. if all goes well

 

[Volatile]

I feel like I've been on ss for months turns out it hasn't even a month to date yet, I'll be ctb before then (hopefully)
/edit
I read your question wrong. Friday latest.

Why so soon?

 

[Trulysorry]

It's been in the making for a while. It's just time :)

 

[Smilla]

Should have been months ago. This is getting pathetic in my case, really pathetic.

 

[borntodie777]

Next few days..enough is enough

 

[bigj75]

My youth left me at 17 years old. So that was my deadline.

 

[SiArc]

End of February of this year at the absolute latest if I don't find a date this month. I doubt it will be that long because I have put things into motion that are irreversible so I have nothing here to stay for.

 

[Volatile]

Should have been months ago. This is getting pathetic in my case, really pathetic.

Any others here from summer? I wonder how many from that batch of users are dead.

 

[borntodie777]

Any others here from summer? I wonder how many from that batch of users are dead.

I've been a lurker since July, practiced partial a lot since September but never actually did it because I was scared I'd be found out

 

[Lifeisatrap]

Last year:(

 

[QuickandPainless]

Should have been months ago. This is getting pathetic in my case, really pathetic.

I'm right there with you dude. I tried almost 2 years ago and my actions got me "saved". Every time I feel like ctbing I think back to me getting saved and I just kick myself for letting that happen.

 

[Jodes]

Note: deadlines aren't a healthy idea if there's a chance you might change your mind. It can make you feel like you need to go ahead with it anyway

 

[stellabelle]

As soon as soon as possible. My last attempt failed, I am long past my expiration date.

 

[MsM3talGamer]

It should have been 7 years ago. Planning for Jan or Feb now.

 

[Paulsmith]

Should of been last xmas just gone now heading towards end of Jan or sometime in February

 

[ReadyasEver]

I am starting to feel fatigued a lot, the pain is still very manageable. But the time is closing in quickly.

 

[lucines]

Don't really have a specific date in mind, just waiting till I finally have enough motivation to go through with it. I will always regret not catching the bus when I was younger and more susceptible to rash decision making, maybe impusively ending your own life isn't the smartest thing to do but it would have saved me a lot of misery.

 

[Final Escape]

Mine is middle age. After that there is no hope whatsoever. Your youth is gone forever and everything is a constant reminder of what could've been but never will be.

Yea I'm in middle age and this is how it feels. I haven't gotten over all the failings. I'd like to recover though. Probably the biggest regret is the abortions in my 20's. It's not so much that I think I made the wrong decision to abort in the circumstances I was in. It's more the fact that I put myself in the situation to even have to have abortions in the first place. Iam temporarily not suicidal right now but just a day or two ago I was in a bad state. I have been wanting to at least have a surefire method on hand should things get extremely bad and I can never claw my way back to sanity.

 

[I am ___________]

The latest I will wait is the month before my birthday, in April. Sometime towards the end of the month. Hoping it will be much sooner, I just can't wait anymore. I need to do before the chance slips out my fingers, and I'll be trapped again for another 10 years or so. I fear being trapped..... as the world becomes much more worse and my life as well. It's all downhill from here, cannot and will not allow myself to get any lower.

 

[I am ___________]

It should have been 7 years ago. Planning for Jan or Feb now.

Me and you both. Should have known everything was going to go down hill..... I Wasted so much time

 

[TAW122]

I have no exact deadline. However, depending on life circumstances and timing, I could ctb in 2019 or maybe even a year or later in the future, it all just depends on the things going around in my life. If a serious enough catalyst hits me, like imminent risk of long term homelessness with no safety net to fall back on, or serious enough lifeshit event on me, then I'm just a trigger away from ctb'ing. I also have zero intention to live until old age and die in some assisted living/nursing home facility/in hospice care, fuck that route. I'd like to have absolute autonomy when it comes to how, when, and where I die. Furthermore, I'd rather die as painlessly and comfortably as I can than to suffer until natural death/other causes.

 

[Jiva]

My deadline will be simply found, i will go if my pains will be too much strong. Also it will help me overcome the survival instinct.

 

[ge0rge]

I'm thinking maybe the end of June.

 

[Pegasus]

Around my graduation which is June.

 

[NoOneKnows]

next two weeks...I haev everything now, but due to Christmas period, more risk relative come sooner from work and might find me before Im dead. I cope from minute to minute, hopefully in 10 days I should be able, horrific things were done tome, my health was destroyed, i have to drug myself with sleepin medication, cuz i cant let myself thinking, i could not bear another second. nobody will ever know, what horror happened to me.

 

[OnlyMercy]

Within the next few months.

My plan is to get a temporary high paying job and hoard all the money to order N however many times is necessary until I get it safely secured in my hands. Whatever is left will be blown on gambling in a serious bid to secure the racks.

Or, I'll ingest Sodium Nitrite with painkillers next month if I'm pressed to end it all urgently.