Discussion What's your addiction?

[thisiswhoiam-]

I'm addicted to xanax, i also have ativan, klonopin, cloranxen, lyrica, baclofen, hydroxyzine, but i barely used them. Benzos are overrated imo, i have never met a more neurotic person than myself, and it still doesn't work that well for me. Now I can't quit and if i try opioids i risk respiratory depression, bullshit drugs that can't be mixed with anything.
Before I had to eat one sweet thing per day, kept touching my phone and turning it around in my hand, i still always browse same sites online so internet addiction maybe etc. doctors thought i had OCD but the diagnosis was scratched.

 

[strawberryjampan]

Alcohol is my worst by far. I used to take a whole bunch of benzos and drink back in 2020 and 2021, usually Xanax, diaz or fake diaz (MSJs(?) they're called in the UK) but stopped that after something like a 3 month long blackout where daily I was waking up in places I don't even recognize anymore and a bunch (a BUNCH) of sexual health scares. I drank to blackout every day for 4 years + and I'm only recently sober. I decided to quit drinking and taking drugs until I make the choice of whether I'm going to kill myself or not, there's no point otherwise for me. They don't have a place in any sort of recovery for me. My brain is quite fucked as a result of multiple years of abuse, I developed super bad anxiety and a bunch of stuff. Don't recommend.