There's no one who can understand the absolute misery and helplessness that us suicidal folk find ourselves trapped in, loneliness is ineradicable from our lives. We are the most deserving of death, euthanasia should be legalized for us.
But no, this world has forced me to choose a violent method to CTB, there's no higher intelligence or God that has made me, or I wouldn't be so ugly and weird and would have some confidence in my self. I'm a result of blind will, biological puppets that my parents are, I was conceived, how fucked up unlucky I was to be born. I want to weep my eyes out and choke to death on my tears.
I find myself so fucking alone in this world, I just hope my family lives peacefully after my CTB.