Story What's the best way to go?

[Sad.L0lly]

I cheated my boyfriend have 2 or 3 months ago and he discovered yesterday and we both are too sad to do some solution to this. I have BPD + depression + anxiety. He have a fucking deep depression and I think he's gonna die. It's all my fault. He said "I was falling in love for you again"...

I'm fucking tired, I don't know what to do. I cutted my arm and my legs, but I think I really wanna cut my neck with a knife and wait to die. Or try CTB,I don't know.

Please, help me, what's the best way to die fast and without pain, because I'm tired to feel and make pain in this shit*y life.

 

[Dark Spring]

I don't think I can advise you on how to ctb, sorry. But you should calm down a bit and not be so impulsive, maybe you both need to talk about what happened and think about what you both feel. I think it's too soon to think about what to do now. In my opinion things can end well without ctb because of this. Think about it just a little bit. Good luck and I send you many hugs

 

[TripleA]

Guillotine i think

 

[Sad.L0lly]

I don't think I can advise you on how to ctb, sorry. But you should calm down a bit and not be so impulsive, maybe you both need to talk about what happened and think about what you both feel. I think it's too soon to think about what to do now. In my opinion things can end well without ctb because of this. Think about it just a little bit. Good luck and I send you many hugs

well, we both are so far from each other, even living in the same house, idk. I just wanna die, I want to all my life, since my 11 years old. Well, I'm tired. I'm thinking to jump from some high place or build.

 

[x~Sophia~x]

Do you have any support for your mental health issues? Could you talk to a third party and try to work things out, rather than impulsively think that CTB is the only way forward?
I know you're hurting and you feel that life will never be the same again, but that's just not true, it's your BPD emotions tricking you. I wish you luck in moving forward from this, you both sound very young and there's always a chance you can fix this.