What’s something you deeply regret doing?

[notsohpy]

Just exactly what the title says ..

 

[sometimesoon]

That I failed at my last attempt - the anchor came loose

 

[Momotoru]

Staying for so long. Should have been gone already.

 

[Glenferd666]

Just exactly what the title says ..

I regret my three failed attempts. I want to be free from this awful world and just end it all. Why is CTB so hard ?

 

[notsohpy]

I totally get you, I don't want to do this anymore either. :(

 

[Gangrel]

Being a shitty person in the past and making so many mistakes as a younger person.

 

[Plentiful_Despair]

I regret nothing.

 

[fatladysings]

I regret nothing.

I so admire you for the life you must have lived!!

(I regret tons of things and wish I could just forget about them)

 

[Plentiful_Despair]

I so admire you for the life you must have lived!!

(I regret tons of things and wish I could just forget about them)

Don't admire me lol, it's a shit life. That's why I'm here. I don't regret my actions because I always tried to do the most logical thing in any situation, trying to have the least negative outcomes. I did the best I could, but it almost never worked. I got bad luck after bad luck after bad luck. And the worst part is, it seems like no other choice would have been better. It's like my fate is to suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing in the first place of course, more than anything I wish I never suffered in this dreadful, torturous existence. Existing truly caused me nothing but pain which is why all I wish for is non-existence, I only hope to never suffer again which is why it's so painful how I cannot just have the option to easily free myself from this existence, it really scares me how one can potentially suffer for so long with no limit as to how much agony they can feel, I wish I could just fall asleep permanently and forget about it all.

 

[Chronicallyunwell]

Being anorexic, sex with people i didnt like, being selfish, not enjoying life when before I got sick.

 

[lizzywizzy09]

Not getting diagnosed and treated sooner, wasting my life on the wrong people, trusting the wrong people, letting old friendships slide, letting useless doctors get me down, discontinuing my medication back in 2011 (the big one), etc...

 

[LifeQuitter]

Drugs

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I don't have any regrets. I simply don't want to do or achieve anything in life. I want to be dead but I don't regret killing myself sooner as suicide is incredibly difficult to do

 

[Soupster]

Letting my parents drag me to church for 20 years and thinking it was good...

 

[divinemistress87]

Meeting the man that caused my stroke, electroshock therapy, and not ctbing years ago

 

[EternalDreams]

Doing drugs when all I needed was a hug back then

 

[uglyugly]

Spending so many damn years trying to fit in instead of just being myself. It took me until my mid-50s to give up trying to please others. I wish I would have always been myself, but better late than never.

 

[ForgottenAgain]

I don't think I have regrets as I've always been so undecided that I would make pros and cons tables when making big decisions. Looking back I think I picked the best choices I could at the time.

I just wish I knew when certain people in my life would die so I could try to avoid it. If I knew that, I could have pressured my mother to seek treatment several years early and maybe she would still be alive.

 

[Ironborn]

I regret not severing ties with my family decades ago, every time I tried to drag myself out of the mud their clawing hands pulled me right back in.
I don't think words exist to properly describe the hatred and resentment I hold towards them.

 

[fatladysings]

Don't admire me lol, it's a shit life. That's why I'm here. I don't regret my actions because I always tried to do the most logical thing in any situation, trying to have the least negative outcomes. I did the best I could, but it almost never worked. I got bad luck after bad luck after bad luck. And the worst part is, it seems like no other choice would have been better. It's like my fate is to suffer.

I really resonate with you saying bad luck after bad luck after bad luck, that's how my life seems to me too.

You say you did the best you could but it almost never worked, and that it's like your fate is to suffer - it all sounds so very sad. You sound like you've had a very difficult life. I hope you can take a small amount of comfort from the fact that it genuinely is a blessing to be able to say you regret nothing. I used to drink an awful lot in my teens and twenties and am filled with regrets for all the stupid things I said and did, and that's just for starters.

I know you wouldn't be hanging out in a suicide forum if you had a happy life but all I can say to you is that I hope you have some periods of relief from your suffering from time to time.

 

[Madison98]

After months of arguments and a big fight I cheated on my partner.

Experimented with drugs and worsened my mental health.

Didn't reach out to my best friend after a year of no contact. Turned out he commuted suicide in January.

Didn't transition when I first realised I was trans at 12. There is no undoing. I either learn to live with the consequences of my actions or step off the roller coaster.

 

[sugarb]

Your mom.

no but really- I wish I'd started learning guitar at a young age and been pushed heavily into doing it. Also wish I hadn't gotten a crush on this one girl. And I regret being overly clingy with a friend and pushing them away in the process

 

[Plentiful_Despair]

I really resonate with you saying bad luck after bad luck after bad luck, that's how my life seems to me too.

You say you did the best you could but it almost never worked, and that it's like your fate is to suffer - it all sounds so very sad. You sound like you've had a very difficult life. I hope you can take a small amount of comfort from the fact that it genuinely is a blessing to be able to say you regret nothing. I used to drink an awful lot in my teens and twenties and am filled with regrets for all the stupid things I said and did, and that's just for starters.

I know you wouldn't be hanging out in a suicide forum if you had a happy life but all I can say to you is that I hope you have some periods of relief from your suffering from time to time.

Thanks. I wish the same for you

 

[brokeandbroken]

Believing people were generally good and the bad were a minority. I think there are very few generally good or okay people...

 

[fleetingnight]

Acting in self-interest

 

[excinephile]

I reached a point where I'm boiling in my self inflicted hell for so long already thatbI kind of regret EVERYTHING bc every life decision contributed to my current state and I reslize that I've been a goddamn failure all along.

 

[Valhala]

I regret most of all the mistakes I made a year ago and which I was not able to correct afterwards. I regret that due to some external circumstances and pressures, I repeatedly broke up with the person I loved the most in my life and that I disappointed her because of it. we loved each other deeply and deeply. Without her, my life has absolutely no meaning anymore, because all the numerous existential and other problems can perhaps be partially resolved, but losing someone like her forever is insurmountable. I would like if I could turn back time and act differently, but like this everything seems lost and meaningless.

 

[graysme]

Being so scared of trying to do anything. Scared of exposing myself or doing the first move in general, I was a huge observer of everyone else's life.

 

[WhyIam]

Not doing anything is my biggest regret.