notsohpy
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- Aug 18, 2024
- 14
I regret my three failed attempts. I want to be free from this awful world and just end it all. Why is CTB so hard ?Just exactly what the title says ..
I so admire you for the life you must have lived!!I regret nothing.
Don't admire me lol, it's a shit life. That's why I'm here. I don't regret my actions because I always tried to do the most logical thing in any situation, trying to have the least negative outcomes. I did the best I could, but it almost never worked. I got bad luck after bad luck after bad luck. And the worst part is, it seems like no other choice would have been better. It's like my fate is to suffer.I so admire you for the life you must have lived!!
(I regret tons of things and wish I could just forget about them)
Don't admire me lol, it's a shit life. That's why I'm here. I don't regret my actions because I always tried to do the most logical thing in any situation, trying to have the least negative outcomes. I did the best I could, but it almost never worked. I got bad luck after bad luck after bad luck. And the worst part is, it seems like no other choice would have been better. It's like my fate is to suffer.
Thanks. I wish the same for you
I really resonate with you saying bad luck after bad luck after bad luck, that's how my life seems to me too.
You say you did the best you could but it almost never worked, and that it's like your fate is to suffer - it all sounds so very sad. You sound like you've had a very difficult life. I hope you can take a small amount of comfort from the fact that it genuinely is a blessing to be able to say you regret nothing. I used to drink an awful lot in my teens and twenties and am filled with regrets for all the stupid things I said and did, and that's just for starters.
I know you wouldn't be hanging out in a suicide forum if you had a happy life but all I can say to you is that I hope you have some periods of relief from your suffering from time to time.