Discussion What’s keeping you from ctb?

[Darkover]

The human condition is slavery, which is why having children is a terrible idea.
For someone to have children, they have to be completely ignorant of what the world is actually like and how things in society work. Human beings are slaves.
They are not born as slaves, but if you look around the world and are honest with yourself, you will see that human beings are in chains everywhere you look.
To prove this just think, the mere fact that you have to work to be able to receive necessities in order to sustain survival or comfort. but I cannot accept living
in a reality or society that essentially coerces us to do so. Especially a society that condemns
suicide even while more humane methods are more readily accessible to grant those who are not willing to partake in such an event.
One they did not ask or couldn't have asked for. Who would willingly choose to live on a earth that requires you to give up most of your day to something you would
never do willingly wouldn't you rather not be apart of a world that forces you into such a dilemma were the only other option
in life is shame, starvation, homelessness? The truth is, that humanity is basically a slave race, and having children is just bringing more people into a world where the human condition is slavery.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Lack of accessible and peaceful methods as well as having to navigate through strict and controlling parents

 

[Forever Sleep]

Ironically, I'm staying alive for the sake of my Dad, who I also feel a whole ton of resentment towards for dumping me into this mess and criticising me for not thriving in it.

I suspect when I do feel free to do it though, that fear might well hold me back. I'm so hoping I can smash through that though.

 

[dontwakemeup]

Not guaranteed painless method. If I had it, I would have been left.

 

[Agon321]

Fear of the unknown.
My life is all I know and death is the end of it.
I feel abstract when I think about it.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Fear! And periods of hope, usually late in the day. But I know I fucked myself decades ago. And my brother is worse off. Maybe we'll partner up.

 

[MoonBat]

I'm not afraid of what comes next I'm just afraid of getting there. Some part of me still hopes it will get better but it seems increasingly bleak each day. Make these moments count and give love to each other now

 

[Prism]

I'm a big fat chicken who's scared to die

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

The Sonic 3 movie also laziness to actually plan it out properly. I have SN already though.

 

[AnderDethsky]

Probably this is this, then, I still haven't learned all my favorite songs and solos on my electric guitar, I haven't composed enough of my own material yet.

Well, it may also be that I haven't made enough posts here yet to definitely leave my mark here.

I like to create, express myself, I would be offended if in the last months/years of my life I am not a star that burns as brightly as I quickly go out.

 

[noname37]

Literally because I have no area where I am able to be left alone for an extended period of time. If that was the case I wouldn't be on here and I would have roped already. I am currently waiting for my SN to arrive.
I'm such a shitty position in my life right now I can't afford a place for my own, I only really have myself to blame for being put in this position.

 

[radiohead]

boiled down, it just seems like a shame to end things here, after maybe a quarter of what my life could be. i've a lot of plans to help people like me (stuck inside for years for.. a whole load of reasons) so it feels like denying someone else a shot at escaping if i don't do all i can to get those ideas into something tangible. dealing with ever increasing executive function issues though. not fully sure why. will probably ctb if i can't escape this next year as that'll be 5/6 since i've really lived, but i'm otherwise relatively optimistic 35% of the time. that's enough to keep me around for now, just about.

 

[acidreflux]

I still have the ability to enjoy some things and have connections with the very few people in my life, so I want to just max out my enjoyment until I feel like I no longer have anything to look forward to. That way I'd be really leaving without any "regrets".
But I'd say it's mostly fear, laziness and lack of access to methods that's keeping me here. The other day, I wanted to go on the train tracks but I just couldn't do it when given the opportunity. I just watched the train pass by, wondering what could've been.

 

[TheHolySword]

my brother. life insurance payout not available for suicide until may of next year. but when my SN is here idk if I'll have the strength to keep going.

 

[Sutter]

Clear.

Clear perspective at this point. Most things handled and what is left is of little concern, as I am less of a concern to all the threads of my life that are left.

The world is not slavery to me, people do that. A struggle, yes, life is nothing but struggle, always was. No matter when in history a person screamed in to existence basic necessities had to be met, even cavemen bitched about the gerbal wheel. People though, best and worst at times, the need to boast, lie, control, and rise at the cost of others. Theres the slavery.

When the world tilts and the shift lays a cold blanket on your heart, tilt it back in your two square feet of space. Not everywhere, not a propaganda campaign, not forcing others, just in your space. If no person ever fought for that small personal space the world would be much darker than slavery.

At this point for me waiting for the dust to settle and the last fading embers of a life loved to die out. I owe death a firm accounting, without any weakness in my stance, death wants a fair closing. The utter acceptance and absorption, without a scream, of all the darkness I brought to this life as I walk escorted out of it.

A cursed pipe smiles at me sipping life everyday and yet knowing it is loved. Not sure who the smoker and the pipe are, lines blurred. So I let hope build and demolish it, ego builds and step on it, a deep loss is felt and tears flow, but after it passes and all is stripped, then clear perspective and a price to be paid.

 

[davidtorez]

The human condition is slavery, which is why having children is a terrible idea.
For someone to have children, they have to be completely ignorant of what the world is actually like and how things in society work. Human beings are slaves.
They are not born as slaves, but if you look around the world and are honest with yourself, you will see that human beings are in chains everywhere you look.
To prove this just think, the mere fact that you have to work to be able to receive necessities in order to sustain survival or comfort. but I cannot accept living
in a reality or society that essentially coerces us to do so. Especially a society that condemns
suicide even while more humane methods are more readily accessible to grant those who are not willing to partake in such an event.
One they did not ask or couldn't have asked for. Who would willingly choose to live on a earth that requires you to give up most of your day to something you would
never do willingly wouldn't you rather not be apart of a world that forces you into such a dilemma were the only other option
in life is shame, starvation, homelessness? The truth is, that humanity is basically a slave race, and having children is just bringing more people into a world where the human condition is slavery.

Couldn't have said it better myself.