whats better, vanishing or having your body found by family or friends?

[Bct]

Yeah, ive come to terms with the fact that i, as a human have responsibilities and i cant just think about myself when ending it. It was probably a very stupid thought of me to think i could just wander off.

I don't think it was a stupid thought. Sometimes we are just oblivious, especially regarding something relatively rarely discussed topics like suicide.