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CursedForDisaster

Student
Apr 1, 2019
187
Prepare, breath in, close my eyes then go through with it until I pass out. It will naturally be scary, it will naturally hurt, it will hurt for the rest of my life, more than ever before but then I won't feel anything, at least as we perceive it, if there's anything after this.
 
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Maksimka Ai

Maksimka Ai

Broken
Apr 26, 2019
36
thats to aggresive on family...
but if you dont want even them to find you... it would be like your last insult to them I guess....

whatever you need man,
if thats it, then thats it

I wish you some rest
Unfortunately, she can not be with me, this is not my family, these are the ones I love (((
 
Soul

Soul

gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svaha
Apr 12, 2019
4,704
I lie down and concentrate on not puking, probably. It might hurt, but I won't need to fight against that or do anything about it, so ok. I hope to head into whatever comes next with curious enthusiasm. Vroom! Let's go
 
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Keshin

Keshin

Almost there
May 6, 2019
7
For those wondering my SN is set to arrive Tuesday even though it's an hour from where I live currently, I'll make a new thread when my time comes and I hope you'll join in for updates on my experience with it
 
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Going Home

Going Home

Specialist
Sep 21, 2018
357
Probably think about my faith.
 
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tomz323

tomz323

Walking to the bus stop
Mar 29, 2019
367
Honestly I'd properly be freaking out wondering "What have I done? Could I of done things differently?" But very soon I wouldn't care.
 
HappyEnding

HappyEnding

Member
Mar 23, 2019
85
I'd probably die while listening to calm, therapeutic music.
 
AloneInTheSky

AloneInTheSky

Member
May 13, 2019
10
Listening to my favorite music and watching the wind blow through the leaves
 
Weems

Weems

Experienced
May 5, 2019
204
Honestly I'd properly be freaking out wondering "What have I done? Could I of done things differently?" But very soon I wouldn't care.
Those last few seconds before meeting death consciously, say, as a jumper, boggle my mind. Knowing that it's all over in three seconds. But there's never gonna be a time when you can say what it was like to die. It just ends, but you're not around to see it end.

Going to sleep? Easy. Tomorrow's cancelled? Sweet, I didn't want to face it anyway. But meeting my end while wide awake is another thing entirely.
 
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offshoreserver

offshoreserver

(っ˘̩╭╮˘̩)っ
May 13, 2019
33
Most likely, it will be in an inflatable boat, with dumbbells on my legs, I will drink N, then I will cut it. I don't want anyone to find my body. I will think about the one I love, about her beautiful two girls, about her beautiful smile, and beautiful eyes. it will make me smile, and at the same time sad. But I am very tired, I can no longer live
i had a dream about my suicide last time i was asleep after making my account. i think your post stuck in my mind because you were in it. i won't go into details because it's long and most of it isn't relevant but me and you had both taken what we were going to take to ctb and we were walking side by side, then you saw your family and you went to them and they embraced you and told you how they had missed you and had been looking for you. i don't know what your relationship is like with them, but i have visions a lot and i think that's a sign that they love you very much if it could reach all the way to me. do what you must for yourself, but love is powerful. continue to treasure them while you're still here... but i am sure they will love you even if you are gone

as for me, if i do ctb while my partner is still with me, i want him at my side as i go. i think then i could finally rest. not many things have ever made me feel safe or happy but he's very tender to me. since childhood, i only ever wanted to feel loved and to escape pain. to think of a peaceful death in bed with him at my side, warm against me and petting me or something makes me teary-eyed. it's more than i deserve, and it could never happen because the legal consequences for him would be terrible, but it would be a dream. if i couldn't come into this world feeling love, i would at least like to go out of it like that
 
Memento Mori

Memento Mori

shambling garbage
Jan 24, 2019
573
cry and laugh, think about moments i experienced
 
Donewitheverything

Donewitheverything

Ultimate Despair
Apr 8, 2019
78
I'd cry and perhaps smile that it's over.
 
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