He'd be relieved to see that I've stayed the same, sure I've matured, but at the core, we're no different. Our beliefs and worldviews stayed the same, our hopes and dreams stayed the same. He feared that once he grows older a switch would flip in his brain and he would lose all his sense of self and become human. Work a job, love life, accept society for what it is. That was one of the few things that turned out our way. I think he would also be impressed and proud to find out I got hrt when I was still underaged and I of course would tell him how I got it in hopes of getting it earlier.
He'd be probably disappointed that I'm even worse with social anxiety, that I probably can't beat him at fencing because I'm just not confident enough to do it properly. That I give up so easily because "what does it matter if I'm gonna be dead."
I think he's also going to be worried that I'm almost out of time but my project is far from done.
I would also instruct him to make a better ctb attempt the first time round, or at least not fuck up the second.
