What would you tell your past self to prevent your ctb ?

[deflagrat]

I would try to avoid trolling people in MMOs, I was resentful because of my psychosis (voices would attack me and I thought it was other people doing it) and I used to take it on people who didn't do anything to deserve it. At one point I stopped completely, and now I feel like a jerk everytime I remember my behaviour. I wish I didn't do any of that.

I would also advise myself not to believe that my voices are real people because I used to think everyone laughed at me and hated me, literally everyone in the entire world (I must have been pretty famous then, I know). As a consequence to those beliefs, I had a hard time in my life and gave up completely. Now it's too late because the damage is already done.

 

[Toenditall]

Don't fail her

 

[Finallyhere]

Don't drop out, listen to your parents and don't live your life for other people.

 

[Finallyhere]

Oh and don't betray ppl

 

[HappilySoaring]

I'd say absolutely nothing. Some people are just given the short end of the stick from the very beginning..and honestly, I wouldn't have had it any other way. I believe our destinies are predetermined. Even if I had been given everything in life that a person could ever need or want, that wouldn't have necessarily made living any better or easier...and right now I have the option to exit the way that I prefer. Not by violence, disease, or any other tragedy. I will go peacefully and in complete solace.

 

[Karl]

hey, baby myself, grab your mother's vagina and do not leave because you will suffer and commit suicide in the future

 

[Cody111]

Is it weird i wouldnt say a thing...

Sure ive had ups and downs like everyone else, but ive enjoyed my life, ive met some great people, gone on adventures, travelled, done so great things, made some amazing memories. Im happy with the person i am.

If i had the option to change my life i wouldnt change a thing. Its not perfect... far from it, but i know it could be a lot worse.

 

[BurningLights]

DONT FUCKING USE BENZOS

 

[Tokyojoe]

Do not take any pysch meds esp. fucking benzos. I got dementia because of these fucking drugs. fuck the psychiatrists and big pharmas.

 

[furax53]

benzo est une merde qui nous donne des psychiatres et des docteurs pour avoir marché dans l'industrie pharmaceutique

 

[Deleted member 1496]

1. Leave your family. People can say things about family being the only people you can rely on, but your family is horrible to you. Continuing to be involved with them repeats and reinforces your thinking that you're a fuck-up, don't matter, and that you're alone.
2. Stop enduring so much shit from people and move on from them. You have the right to say No to people who don't respect you or your boundaries.
   
3. Give to yourself too.
   
4. Don't be ashamed of yourself. You're starting from no guidance, and you know who makes mistakes? Humans, even if they don't show it. Considering everything, you're doing as well as could be expected (Eighth Grade). Don't think others always know more or better than you do for what works for you.

 

[Going Home]

1. Trust NO ONE completely.
2. Own your own business. Bosses can be creepy as hell.
3. Do not give anyone a second chance.
4. Don't be prim or proper, they'll just make up shit about you anyway.
5. Dont try to explain yourself to people.
6. Don't EVER go to a psychiatrist.

I'm not even sure that would prevent it.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

This is what I would have told my younger self:

1) Never masturbate and never watch porn.

BUT … That's the only good thing in life.

 

[throwaway111222777]

"Don't trust anyone in your family about anything."

 

[Sharethepain]

"Never be the one who loves more."

 

[longingforrelease]

Oh, I know exactly what I would say to myself at age 40. "You know you have suffered depression, which has gotten better since you got sober 10 years ago. But you also have bipolar disorder. You just don't know that yet because all you've ever experienced are merely mild hypomanic episodes. You also have ADD and at some point you're going think that it's significant enough to treat medically. They're going to offer you amphetamines. DO NOT GO DOWN THAT ROAD. You are bipolar and a recovering alcoholic so those amphetamines are going to become a serious addiction and spark a massive mania that will include extreme hypersexuality. You will in very short order lose everything you care about. Your family, your excellent job, your standing in the community, your self respect, everything. You will endure enormous suffering after it all comes crashing down. And you will find that it is more than you can live with."

 

[Xerxes]

Doesn't matter, I'll always think about death. I guess I would tell my younger self to never accept help because that person will screw you in the end and just CTB to get it over with. No one cared before, no one cares now.