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Rogue_Gendarme

Rogue_Gendarme

Ten Thousand Years
Apr 22, 2024
77
Study history and humanities, write more, pick up an instrument. Stop mulling over art and games. Choose happiness. Work out someday. Sing more. Ask to be moved to a private school. Love yourself. Eat healthier. Don't make the same mistakes I did. Choose happiness.
 
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IsolatedChaos

IsolatedChaos

Member
Dec 25, 2024
61
I'd tell myself to kill myself about 4 years later. Past 6 years have genuinely been nothing but suffering. We peaked 4 years from now, end it there.
 
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ElTopo

ElTopo

Don't listen to me, I am drunk
Mar 30, 2025
259
Spend all your paycheck on Nvidia stocks, btc and gold
 
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ghosted1

ghosted1

Member
Jan 14, 2026
22
Don't go back on antidepressants, I know you're leaving the system BUT DON'T ASK THEM TO GIVE YOU RISPERIDONE.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,355
I would've told myself 10 years ago: " Make these your top goals by far. 1. do everything to get Nembutal at at lest 4 bottles. Nembutal was available for purchase online at least since 2012 to may 2022 from email contacts in the pph the golden age. 2. once you get it in hand store it correctly and do everything to be able to drink it and suicide asap . nothing else matters everything else is meaningless. and the other garbage i have to do like , working a job, daily chores, to do lists , groceries , washing clothes ,eating , trying to sleep, cleaning, trying to fix problems etc i do only to avoid even worse suffering and pain i don't want to do these and the only reasons i'm doing them is because i haven't killed myself . if i do 1 and 2 then i won't have to do anything ever again and also i'm out of the threat of extreme torture forever ( i win). and also i will never suffer unbearable pain nor any suffering , no problems , no chores , no bad memories no pain ever for all time.
 
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impossible_victory

impossible_victory

Member
Dec 26, 2025
24
I would tell myself to stop trying, nothing will work out
 
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violetforever

violetforever

Elementalist
Dec 24, 2025
874
the trauma never ends
 
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assassinlord82

assassinlord82

Member
Nov 12, 2024
32
i cant think of anything besides saying "be strong", always feel like id turn out this way either way
 
FoxSauce

FoxSauce

Emotionally unstable like an IKEA table
Aug 23, 2024
1,292
I woukd tell myself- girl trust me mom doesnt care of you are a honor student
No it wasnt your fault. Mom wont change no matter how hard you try.

Please dont stress out about school wont matter either way.
Stop playing with fire jesus...

Dont pretend to be someone else

Guess thats it
 
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nitrogenous

nitrogenous

Just wanna break free of all suffering
Dec 26, 2025
274
"It's not worth it… once you graduate undergrad, everything will start falling apart, including your will and ability to live"
 
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terrifiedofhumans

terrifiedofhumans

I wanna sail away while listening to Enya.
Feb 19, 2026
8
"All your study, all your work will lead to nothing because socializing just gets harder and harder, there will be a point where you just can't leave the house and the simple thought of having a synchronous conversation will make your heart pound. Just ctb now, you're right, there's nothing in the future for you."
 
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black_iris

black_iris

hiraeth
Jan 30, 2026
42
i would just hug her

(and maybe tell her to have better posture)
 
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endboss

endboss

Member
Apr 8, 2026
95
Keep the volume down and find another hobby you fucking idiot and don't trust that psychiatrist you have with anything
 
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untothedepths

untothedepths

this user is a giant puss
Mar 20, 2023
648
do whatever it takes to get away from your fucking parents, even running away.
 
SoverignDreamer97

SoverignDreamer97

I am never alone.
Mar 29, 2026
146
Shh! I wouldn't wanna spoil the fun.
 
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letmeoff

Member
Aug 5, 2025
9
1. It doesn't get better. Ignore the pro-life slogans. They're empty statements constructed by a corrupted society that spews platitudes, bullshit and rainbows to distract from the fact that we're caught in a capitalistic hellscape. A life where inequality, poverty and injustice are the norm and you're more likely to wither away on the street than find any shred of fulfillment.

2. Formal education is pointless. You'd be better off playing video games on the couch for the next decade than slaving away for an academic system that will still treat you like trash regardless.
 
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TokaNoOwari

TokaNoOwari

dreams, memories, the sacred— all beyond our grasp
Apr 23, 2026
36
houseofleaves

houseofleaves

how's life treating ya?
Jan 14, 2022
625
"Kill yourself. It won't get better."
 
SD2007

SD2007

Member
Apr 19, 2026
6
Is there anything you would have told yourself ten years ago? Besides lottery numbers. What would it be, or would you rather just go through it all again?
Study more, Find new friends you actually like and are happy around and Don't spend so much time playing video games
 
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OkayFine

Member
Apr 12, 2026
14
Stop pretending you're straight. It's not sustainable and the people who disapprove will end up hating you anyway. Also, probably best to go ahead and end it. It doesn't get better, and it isn't worth the pain and effort.
 
DoomsdayCTB

DoomsdayCTB

Member
Apr 24, 2026
29
He will betray you again. just leave and go to Colorado/California. fuck him.
 
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6486159051

Member
Apr 15, 2026
27
Things will get so much worse in ways you cannot even imagine. Every time you feel a bit of hope, it will be dashed to pieces.

Also, I completely agree with @letmeoff's 2nd point about academia. I think academia is partially responsible for my current state.
 
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PanaxMan

Arcanist
Apr 11, 2023
412
Is there anything you would have told yourself ten years ago? Besides lottery numbers. What would it be, or would you rather just go through it all again?
Maybe change anything to not have gone down this path. But it's too late isn't it
 
morina

morina

Member
Apr 11, 2026
58
"Transition and go vegan right now, later you will do so anyway and just regret so much that you waited. Google 'DIY HRT'. Also, don't major in what you currently think you want to major in, you will hate it; major in something else instead. Lastly, tell people in the psychiatric system only what they want to hear, if you do otherwise they won't help you, only threaten you."
...though all that would probably not cure my long-lasting suicidality anyway, so who cares.
 
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RinneOfAragon

Experienced
Jan 2, 2025
214
buy sn off Amazon while it's cheap and available
 

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