MourningBird

MourningBird

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Jun 3, 2023
15
I don't want anything, hence wanting to die. As sad as that is.
 
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Tobacco

Tobacco

Efilist. Possible promortalist.
Jan 14, 2023
196
Not needing to work so I can become a mathematician and also not suffering from any illnesses.

I wouldn't shame anyone if they said they want nothing short of living in paradise. We were born as innocent souls and never asked to live in this horrible place.
 
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dernieresolution

Member
Mar 19, 2023
27
No autism and adhd please, thank you
 
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enough of this

enough of this

Specialist
Jun 4, 2023
376
Being pain-free and completely healthy in body and mind. I've never been healthy and its prevented me from working (and therefore earning my own money and being independent, and doing things I'd like to have done and experienced). Not working and earning and having my own money has made me be dependent on others, which makes me feel like a useless parasite and leech and I hate it, just as much as I hate all the years of physical suffering and doctors and pain and surgeries and medications (that never really help).

There are many more things I know would contribute to making my life worthwhile...but I've come to conclude that good health, a strong and dependable body, and strong and stable mind, and a life without pain would be like living on another planet or something to me because I have never remotely experienced a life like that.

Its all Ive hoped and wished for for over 50 yyrs, to be healthy and strong and pain free. Its all I want(ed). I've given up on the hope now at my age
I'm right there with you. I've had so much pain for so long, physical and mental, that at 74, I don't know why I'm even around.
I think about CTB every day. It's a standard with me. There's got to be some pay-off to this misery, otherwise, I would be gone by now.

I'm sorry you're in so much pain. I wish and pray for your health, relief and peace. 🙏
 
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KrowaKovsky

KrowaKovsky

i dunno what to put here
Feb 22, 2023
204
Honestly, if I get accepted into my EMT-B training courses that would prove to myself that my parents and family were wrong about me not being smart enough to be able to actually complete them. It would help a lot of self doubt I have intelligence wise, and if I do well in the field, even better.
 
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leloyon

leloyon

I'll see you in the Wired.
Feb 4, 2023
1,093
If I was born as a different person. If I was born a girl to a different family in a different country, preferably in a different time.
 
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OpheliasFlowers

OpheliasFlowers

Specialist
Apr 2, 2019
348
I'm right there with you. I've had so much pain for so long, physical and mental, that at 74, I don't know why I'm even around.
I think about CTB every day. It's a standard with me. There's got to be some pay-off to this misery, otherwise, I would be gone by now.

I'm sorry you're in so much pain. I wish and pray for your health, relief and peace. 🙏

Thank you for your kind post. I'm so sorry you've suffered with pain for so long. I know the old saying "life isn't fair" but, gosh life is JUST NOT FAIR.

I also have thought about how they just has to be some kind of pay-off, or reward, or at least an important, crucial lesson meant to be learned from soooo much continued suffering but if there is, I'm not smart enough to figure out what that is. I guess I will always, on some level, keep looking for a reason for why my life is how it is (and how its been)...

Thank you for your prayers and good wishes about my health and peace. I wish the same for you, friend. See, this is why this world makes no sense to me and I feel more and more disappointed and disillusioned by it with each passing year -- those people, like you, with the most compassionate and thoughtful hearts and souls, suffer so. I know we are only two people who've never met in real life but I will keep you in my own prayers, that you'll find relief and peace and healing as well.

Thank you again for taking the time to reply to me. Sending you support and love. :heart:
 
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enough of this

enough of this

Specialist
Jun 4, 2023
376
Thank you for your kind post. I'm so sorry you've suffered with pain for so long. I know the old saying "life isn't fair" but, gosh life is JUST NOT FAIR.

I also have thought about how they just has to be some kind of pay-off, or reward, or at least an important, crucial lesson meant to be learned from soooo much continued suffering but if there is, I'm not smart enough to figure out what that is. I guess I will always, on some level, keep looking for a reason for why my life is how it is (and how its been)...

Thank you for your prayers and good wishes about my health and peace. I wish the same for you, friend. See, this is why this world makes no sense to me and I feel more and more disappointed and disillusioned by it with each passing year -- those people, like you, with the most compassionate and thoughtful hearts and souls, suffer so. I know we are only two people who've never met in real life but I will keep you in my own prayers, that you'll find relief and peace and healing as well.

Thank you again for taking the time to reply to me. Sending you support and love. :heart:
Thank you for your kind words. You are a wonderful soul. I'm honored to call you my friend. :heart:
 
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OpheliasFlowers

OpheliasFlowers

Specialist
Apr 2, 2019
348
Thank you for your kind words. You are a wonderful soul. I'm honored to call you my friend. :heart:

I apologize for how long it's taken to reply to your comment, and to thank you. I haven't been on here much lately.

I've been going through such a difficult time recently, even more so than my 'normal' and your comment was like a warm hug (which I desperately needed, especially today). I am grateful to you and again, thank you. Let's please keep in touch. And, its definitely my honor to call you my friend. :heart:
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
11,367
Litteraly the lottery jackpot. everything else is good already.
 
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SolomonKado

SolomonKado

This is taking too long…
Jul 4, 2023
424
Basically if your wishes came true, and all the struggles came to an end… what would that look like? Your pains gone, all of it gone. What would u do? (Sorry I find it hard to word this question I hope it makes sense lol)

For me it would be not having to mask my personality, my disorders and my struggles. Not having to fear to get hurt, and not having my past as a weapon. Also to be accepted for who I truly am. I just wish I could forget a bunch of stuff too. I wish I wasn't so alone, broken and worthless. And someone just like me out there, that's just some thoughts, I'm sure there's more if I put a bit more thought into it… but if those could just be gone, maybe I wouldn't be in this dark place…
If dreams came true..I would like anyone that's going to have a child make sure they can be responsible to take care of it and willing to do anything it takes to be a good parent. Most of the time people are having babies because Sex feels nice….

People want to bitch about the next generation, but all the parents are responsible for that generation. I want people to only focus on the kid for the next 18 years instead of being selfish and only thinking of what they want. "I WANT to have a baby." Maybe making a freaking school for people that are going to be parents that they have to do first. If they fail then their baby making parts are ripped out. Having a baby is a privilege not a right. Your want to be "Pro-Life?" Then why the heck are you ruining the child's life by bringing them into a world you weren't planning on being responsible for?!

That and win the largest lottery so I can buy an island and get the hell out of here.
 
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outatime_85

Warlock
May 17, 2022
776
I would most likely have tried out for medical school if the wishes were real.
 
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natthebrat

natthebrat

only help i want is with ctb
Jul 9, 2023
168
To have been able to grow up as the girl I've always been, and to have a job that is both routine and requires little to no interaction with people.
 
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JustAGuy

JustAGuy

Passionless
Jul 2, 2023
16
A perfect girlfriend, probably a portion of the reason I'm still living rn. My existence is proof enough that weird things can Happen, so I wait, tho not the main reason I haven't thrown it all away
 
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Jamesun

Jamesun

I'm just a person
Feb 23, 2022
118
Be someone intelligent and maybe stop suffering from GAD
 
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WonderingSoul

WonderingSoul

Gamer
Dec 15, 2021
327
Not being mentally handicapped and having people who want to be around me because they genuinely want to.
 
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trashprincess

trashprincess

She/Slur
Aug 8, 2023
186
Attention. Someone to treat me like I'm special. Someone to hold me. Someone for me to pour my heart into.

So much of life sucks, in ways that don't go away. I'll never be free from my problems. So all I can ask for is someone to share my struggle with me.
 
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enough of this

enough of this

Specialist
Jun 4, 2023
376
Attention. Someone to treat me like I'm special. Someone to hold me. Someone for me to pour my heart into.

So much of life sucks, in ways that don't go away. I'll never be free from my problems. So all I can ask for is someone to share my struggle with me.
What would make my life great and worthwhile, is to have someone in it who could truly BE with me - someone who would understand me and listen to me without judging or criticizing me. I hope you find that someone who would make you special to them. 🫂
 
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Unattainable666

Unattainable666

Enlightened
Mar 31, 2023
1,346
Having the courage to CTB
 
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mizumono

mizumono

Member
Aug 9, 2023
26
having someone who would see me and understand me completely, someone to love me, so i could do and build things with them, and living in a diffetent city. money wouldn't hurt either
 
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Darkover

Darkover

Angelic
Jul 29, 2021
4,658
having a loving caring girl friend, having a loving caring family, having lots of money oh and good health oh and being a programmer oh and being immortal
 
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lainpilled

lainpilled

internet dweller (^་།^)
Jul 17, 2023
17
All I would need is for my loved ones to finally actually understand me, that is all i ask. I hope everyone else does get their wish to come true though :)
 
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NoOneLovesMiMi

NoOneLovesMiMi

Just Me
May 27, 2023
114
Basically if your wishes came true, and all the struggles came to an end… what would that look like? Your pains gone, all of it gone. What would u do? (Sorry I find it hard to word this question I hope it makes sense lol)

For me it would be not having to mask my personality, my disorders and my struggles. Not having to fear to get hurt, and not having my past as a weapon. Also to be accepted for who I truly am. I just wish I could forget a bunch of stuff too. I wish I wasn't so alone, broken and worthless. And someone just like me out there, that's just some thoughts, I'm sure there's more if I put a bit more thought into it… but if those could just be gone, maybe I wouldn't be in this dark place…
When I was young I used to think about this
And of course my first thought was money
I would be able to afford what I need and what I want
The things that follow would be a couple of good friends, close family and a companion
But now I don't want anything
I just want out
 
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Darkover

Darkover

Angelic
Jul 29, 2021
4,658
to be in complete control of whatever it is that makes me what i am
 
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