What would it take to save a life?

[uuser1412]

I had a friend who took his own life and for over a year straight, literally everyday I would wake up and trying to figure out how something like this could happen. My entire framework of seeing the world collapsed, and it took me even a couple of month to even accept that this wasn't some elaborate prank put on me. I had so many dreams in the past about finally waking up and seeing him and feeling so relieved and happy that it was all a dream and that he was actually alive.

I can't help but imagine that it would have taken only one sentence for me to have saved his life. I was right there, the last time I saw him, I could see in his eyes he was tired, but I was so afraid to speak. I was so anxious of how I was coming across. This happened 3 years ago and the guilt never went away.

There were so many times in the past where I was in such extreme anguish and pain that I just couldn't take it anymore, somehow I've survived it all. In other moments, the freeze lifts, and for a second I feel calm and the clarity hits me, and I feel so overwhelmed with emotion I just start crying and I feel so much love for the world.

What would it take to save your life? What would it take to save mine? Would it take a change of environment? Would it take a friend reaching out?

I'm sure all of you still have hope no matter how hard its trying to survive, you are still here after all. So what do you all hope will happen? Have you given up on getting better?

 

[doomedbynarrative]

A literal Act Of God from a god that I'm not really sure exists. Or if god exists then they aren't too personal so it won't happen.

But yeah literally an Act Of God where all is given a good purpose and all is made right, whole, healthy, and loved and immense suffering is eliminated.

 

[FuneralCry]

If saved means decades more of the torture of existing with no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to face the terrible, extreme agony of old age and die anyway then I'd never wish for that as I just don't want the pain, suffering and torture of existing and existing truly is just only suffering, to suffer in this existence will always be an abomination.

I find it so horrific how the torture of existing can continue for much longer, I only continue to suffer as I exist in this evil world where humans have made dying painlessly a crime, anti-suicide truly is such terrible extreme cruelty but what is so terrible and dreadful is how humans impose this torturous existence that I just always saw as a mistake in the first place.

It truly is a mistake to exist and more than anything I wish I was never burdened with this existence at all, for me non-existence is just all that's positive, for me ceasing to exist would be the positive solution to find peace from the evil of existing where existing beings are tortured every second.

 

[hurb]

u shouldn't feel any guilt , a suicidal person analyses everything they have in life from money to friendships. if there was hope the connection between u guys would have been enough for them to keep living, they wouldn't have done it.
suicide is much deeper than just an act of impulse.
and no not all of us have hope , surprisingly enough to conquer ur SI is the hardest task ever.
you have to overcome ur own nature.