I had a friend who took his own life and for over a year straight, literally everyday I would wake up and trying to figure out how something like this could happen. My entire framework of seeing the world collapsed, and it took me even a couple of month to even accept that this wasn't some elaborate prank put on me. I had so many dreams in the past about finally waking up and seeing him and feeling so relieved and happy that it was all a dream and that he was actually alive.
I can't help but imagine that it would have taken only one sentence for me to have saved his life. I was right there, the last time I saw him, I could see in his eyes he was tired, but I was so afraid to speak. I was so anxious of how I was coming across. This happened 3 years ago and the guilt never went away.
There were so many times in the past where I was in such extreme anguish and pain that I just couldn't take it anymore, somehow I've survived it all. In other moments, the freeze lifts, and for a second I feel calm and the clarity hits me, and I feel so overwhelmed with emotion I just start crying and I feel so much love for the world.
What would it take to save your life? What would it take to save mine? Would it take a change of environment? Would it take a friend reaching out?
I'm sure all of you still have hope no matter how hard its trying to survive, you are still here after all. So what do you all hope will happen? Have you given up on getting better?
I can't help but imagine that it would have taken only one sentence for me to have saved his life. I was right there, the last time I saw him, I could see in his eyes he was tired, but I was so afraid to speak. I was so anxious of how I was coming across. This happened 3 years ago and the guilt never went away.
There were so many times in the past where I was in such extreme anguish and pain that I just couldn't take it anymore, somehow I've survived it all. In other moments, the freeze lifts, and for a second I feel calm and the clarity hits me, and I feel so overwhelmed with emotion I just start crying and I feel so much love for the world.
What would it take to save your life? What would it take to save mine? Would it take a change of environment? Would it take a friend reaching out?
I'm sure all of you still have hope no matter how hard its trying to survive, you are still here after all. So what do you all hope will happen? Have you given up on getting better?
