Discussion What would it take to make you happy?

[Gorgon]

Seriously what would it take? Do you even know? I used to think I did but now I dont know if it's even possible. I've tried many thinks money, friends, family, work, arts, nature, counciling and I'm still the same sad person I have always been. I'm starting to think it's like 1980s film war games the only way to win is to not play.

 

[SickSadWorld]

The ability to time travel backwards.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

To be an ignorant, naivé, innocent child again.

 

[dreamsofdestruction]

I kinda feel I'm at the point of no return now. It's really surprising, you always think all the bad things that needed to happen have happened, then it gets worse.

 

[Rachel74]

To have my mom still alive

 

[Mr2005]

The ability to time travel backwards.

This. An impossible ask so why am I still here?

 

[charlottewilts]

To be an ignorant, naivé, innocent child again.

took the words out of my mouth, man. everything was simpler back then.

 

[Darkhaven]

A cure for my disease and money.

 

[Boonks]

Hi,

I've been contemplating this lately. I'm disturbed by existential nihilism...the only way to combat that, for me, is hedonism...I suppose that would entail the pursuit of riches. Y'know, the optimistic nihilist says, "just because we're doomed doesn't mean we can't have a good time" Of course this is impossible for the one who's fucked by ahnedonia.

I *need* to feel like my existence is serving a higher purpose. This is why I was happiest when I was a religious nut. For this reason I am incapable of maintaining a minimum wage job long-term...I've been working on and off since I was 16...every job I had, I was *the best*, and received multiple promotions in a short time...this was a sickness though...I needed to prove my worth to myself...and also I said yes to everyone so everyone took me for a sucker. I'd rage-quit because the depression/anxiety would become unbearable. If I were stuck in the rat race working paycheck to paycheck I'd rather die on the streets. I need self-employment. But I need to be "A Somebody" - currently I am "A Nobody", I do not believe humans have intrinsic value, "every human life is valuable", I believe humans prove their worth...as I believe myself to be "A Nobody" I cannot be happy unless I become "A Somebody".

Also, had an oppressive, traumatic, abusive upbringing due to my sheltered no-life life...I was poor too...still am... I cannot be happy with financial limitations...so...I think my so-called "mental disorders" would be no more if my existence served a higher purpose, if I became A Somebody, and if I was rich.

P.S.: All of this is fuck all without my Dad and my two sisters I raised. If they're dead, I can't fathom being alive. But then there's the dog...shit. Guess I suffer til the dog dies, then I die. Lol. Can't kill the dog.

Boonx

 

[chrijo]

Erasing some memories might help.

 

[Astral316]

To have people in my life who act like they've known me forever and enjoy my company... never had that before, bet it'd feel really good.

 

[passenger27]

To not be so fucked up I need to be on a site like this

To have my mom still alive ❤

Agreed

 

[mynameispaige]

I don't even know what would make me happy anymore..

 

[CursedForDisaster]

A fresh start or at least the chance to go back 5-10 years, so nothing. I just don't see a way out, not unless I stumble upon someone who I connect with that is just as fucked up as me...I feel like I can't help but turn my life into a disaster and I don't see the purpose in trying to fix something that is broken this bad, I just don't care, I always find myself wondering if I ever really have.

To be an ignorant, naivé, innocent child again.

To be in school again would be amazing...the sad thing is I hated almost every minute of it. I used feel so tired and wanted to be alone, now I'm just alone and tired of myself. Why is it so difficult to enjoy the moment, why do we look at past moments (which we didn't seem to care for at the time) with nostalgia... it's a trip

 

[sadgirl2002]

To be a child again or to turn back time to my teen years but since that's impossible and I can't have that, all I want is to have true love from the person I'm waiting for. That was pretty much "the dream" of mine throughout my life, to have that love.

 

[Crushed_Innocence]

TO meet the love of my life, have kids have a family and work together.

 

[Qdv]

The true ability to change my personality...or turn back time to at least enjoy the last experiences I had where I was confident

 

[Final Escape]

The ability to time travel backwards.

This would help a lot. My life would be alot less embarrassing right now. I could have spared myself a lot of unnecessary suffering.

 

[Lethe]

Like others have said, I think returning to a more innocent time would be the only way, really. I'm too bitter and hardened now, despite my best efforts to look for a silver lining. I thought that starting male-to-female HRT would solve all my problems (started last year), and for a while it gave me a new lease on life, but it eventually dawned on me that it wasn't the miracle cure I was hoping for.

 

[Haku]

I had thought alot about time travel, but for me having bad luck, I feel like I could change the situation, but not the outcome, so time travel would be worthless for me. I also thought about amnesia, but I feel like even if I forgot everything, I would still feel dread in my soul, not knowing why, and then eventually I might just end up wanting to die anyway, even if I forgot my past trauma, the dread would probably hurt so much that taking my life would be the only option. I dont know if it would actually happen that way, but I feel like it would. The next thing would be a miracle, but I know for sure that will never happen for me, so i see it as death being my only medicine to obtain the peace and happiness i want.

 

[Hotsackage]

DONT TOUCH THE BROWNIES

 

[Nem]

Go back 12 years and steer clear of my ex. She was the worst thing to happen to me bar none
Peace/hugs

 

[Return2Dust]

Go back 12 years and steer clear of my ex. She was the worst thing to happen to me bar none
Peace/hugs

I'm stealing yours...I want to go back and redo the day I met my ex. Skip the place we met so it never happened.

 

[Avery Jordan]

Psychedelics and money.

 

[Enabran255]

I don't think I really need all that much. Just some good, loyal friends, the ability to support myself in a place with a better climate (winter and dreary days make me depressed thanks to SAD), and most importantly, romantic success.

Unfortunately I may as well be wanting my own private jet, because at this point I just don't think these desires will ever be realized. It's extremely difficult to make friends when you're at an age where everyone has long since settled down, have kids, and work all the time. If you haven't kept up with societal expectations for your age, you get ruthlessly judged and excluded from social circles.

After college it goes into nightmare difficulty level in terms of trying to build a social life. I also can't relate to anyone near my age because I'm light years behind them in life accomplishments. The people who share my interests are pretty much all 25 and younger, and most want nothing to do with someone my age.

As far as finding love, nope, if you can't support yourself as a man it's an instant dealbreaker. Let alone the other problems that come from a lifetime of being alone.

 

[Icarus]

Going back to 2016. I still could fix things at that point.

 

[snowman626]

- not having to work a job i dont like, being able to do what i enjoy doing all day everyday without having to worry about making money
- owning a super modern (almost futuristic) home that i have all to myself (see pic below for an idea of my dream home)
- unlimited money
- a beautiful woman to spend life with me
- being in the best physical shape
- guarantee from some heavenly power that i'll never get sick or get seriously injured in some accident
- having a nembutal pill at my disposal. even if i never use it i just want to have the option

if i have all that then i'll be happy. but i still dont want to live till im like 80-90 and be weak and old. i still want to leave this world on my own terms, maybe i'll swallow the nembutal pill when im around 50-55, and i'll make a specific date many years ahead of time, and when the date comes i'll have a big goodbye ceremony and go out peacefully.

Here are some ideas of my dream home:













My Dream Woman:





if somehow there is a heavenly afterlife and you can create anything you want then these are all things i will manifest after i leave this world

 

[heres10buckskillme]

To have my brother alive

 

[CursedForDisaster]

DONT TOUCH THE BROWNIES

...more for me

Psychedelics and money.

I got the first lol they gives moments of joy/wonder in an otherwise dull existence, just be careful to anyone who's thinking of exploring their minds, it can also get very uncomfortable.

 

[Dreamwithinadream]

Good health, no more pain, and money.