What would it take to change your mind to not ctb?

[Anonymous_A]

Probably £10k would get me back into a good place, heck probably £5k to get back on track/on my feet.
But then again, I'm only waiting around for my dad, once his time comes, I'm gone fo sure.
Least I'll have somebody waiting for me on the other side.

My dads is 78 and I'm 24, so I suppose not much time left. Which is why I don't see the point in making the effort to get better. I either wait it out before he goes, or just resort to ctb before.

 

[slyna]

Nothing. I despise everything. Even life itself

 

[BreakTheCycle]

If the world would stop to be such a shitty place. Humans have an endless potential yet we choose to destroy everything in our path.
I once live like I wanted. Just with a backpack and everything I need for survival would be in there. Searchin for jobs around the world take oppertunities when ever they show up and just living. Nothing special would happen except for a fish biting so I have food or some new person that would tell his own story of all this stuff that he experienced. Im still young enough to get back in this live I can still walk 40km's a day to get where ever I want. But Corona hitted pretty hard, I got back in "normal" life and got into a relationship. Very bad choice with BPD. Also I've never been made for this life here in my country even tho it couldnt be more privileged.
I guess when Corona ends and I can go back living like this I might get close to something like being happy. The traveling showed me rly bad sides of live but also how amazing it can be.
Maybe just maybe if I can get back on the road and have someone around me, that shares my life with me I might not ctb.
And since many people mentioned time travel. It would be awesome to avoid some traumas and some rly dark and shitty times.

 

[Cheemo]

A pet tentacle monster who will share forbidden secrets of the universe, open portals to unexplored galaxies and give me foot rubs in the evenings.

I've watched enough hentai to see where this is going..

 

[Yolkeating:)]

I think for me it would be to get rid of this negative thinking and self loathing. It's so hard though. It's been like this all my life. It's like teaching your brain that blue is now red. I plan to do dbt (dialectical behavioral therapy) soon and hopefully that helps..

Love. Lost love someone who gets me and I get them. And I guess me being sound of mind too

 

[auror.]

If I could make things happen: achieve things, get a job, move out, take care of myself, etc.

If I could minimise contact with my family, and all the people in my life now, really.

If I could stop being afraid of everything. If my default mode of being wasn't self-loathing. If I could feel comfortable for one moment in this world.

 

[SleepDealer]

Have any of you heard of shifting? That. If that was real, I'd hop into a better world where I'm a better person and live happily ever after.
More realistically, a boyfriend that likes to cuddle might keep me around a little longer, but even that is terribly unrealistic considering my situation.

 

[deadverysoon]

a lot of money - to do things that make me happy. to study. to help others with it. to get a good therapist. to spend time to really heal. to fix things i had done wrong. to go to court.

but without a finacial resource - nothing ever will change - because of the constant exhausting preassure.

and a new name.

but in my case its just too late. my life got ripped apart forever. without any chance of recovery or even get a chance of a well paid job.

 

[one.way.out]

I want a boyfriend who will take care of me and cuddle me to sleep every night. Time travel would also work.

 

[coffee]

Money

I want a boyfriend who will take care of me and cuddle me to sleep every night. Time travel would also work.

Love cuddling as well.

 

[oldgregg187]

If my brain damage, insomnia, muscle spasms and tinnitus induced by medications could somehow be fixed I'd reconsider.

What kind of medication caused this

 

[NasiGoreng]

If I just got rid of my anxiety and pain, I would not ctb.

 

[forgotihadschooltday]

Self pity and the pressure of my future

 

[sanguineblade]

Health back

 

[coffee]

Health back

Feel bad for you man.

 

[brainpain2]

A cure for my chronic pain and severe severe insomnia (no drugs no matter how strong can touch it)

 

[whenlavaflows]

getting my ex back.. </3
and my puppy. and my old apartment.
just my entire old life back.