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MisterOGBongWater
Student
- Aug 30, 2023
- 105
I wonder this often. its one of the few things keeping me away from ending my life so impulsively. Will i feel my skull break before the shell kills me? WIll i really die right away? will i feel it all for a second only to never feel a single thing ever again, like im ripping off a fucked up band-aid?
I suppose it doesnt matter
the pain of blowing my skull into bite sized pieces for a milisecond cant hurt worse than the eternal misery ive been dealt in life.
My brain will always try to kill itself, i think im sick in a way no one can see, or take seriously. i dont want them to anyway, its not like cancer where id wish to know life after healing. healing is the true death sentence. being forced to be comfortably numb till nature takes you one day, i often ask myself whats the rush, followed by a why wait.
Sick or not, i give in and i surrender.
Ill let it take me when the times right, and pull my own plug and end this coma dream nightmare while im still lucky enough.
i surrender myself
I suppose it doesnt matter
the pain of blowing my skull into bite sized pieces for a milisecond cant hurt worse than the eternal misery ive been dealt in life.
My brain will always try to kill itself, i think im sick in a way no one can see, or take seriously. i dont want them to anyway, its not like cancer where id wish to know life after healing. healing is the true death sentence. being forced to be comfortably numb till nature takes you one day, i often ask myself whats the rush, followed by a why wait.
Sick or not, i give in and i surrender.
Ill let it take me when the times right, and pull my own plug and end this coma dream nightmare while im still lucky enough.
i surrender myself