WHAT WOULD CHANGE YOUR MIND ABOUT CTB?

[Unattainable666]

I've often thought about this. What would cause me to change my mind about ctb? If there were someone in my life who understood me and cared about me, I think I would change my mind - or at least make me thing twice.

 

[outrider567]

Nothing

 

[struggles_inc]

If there were someone in my life who understood me and cared about me, I think I would change my mind - or at least make me thing twice

Yes, totally true.

 

[The anhedonic one]

Only the real love of another human being could ever change my mind not to CTB.
I view this dreadful world as a souless realm of suffering .
All of my entire existence of suffering has been filled with the deep and painful longing to truly connect with another human being on a level of true, deep, and meaningful love.
I long for nothing more than this, for this is truly all that matters.

 

[Unattainable666]

Only the real love of another human being could ever change my mind not to CTB.
I view this dreadful world as a souless realm of suffering .
All of my entire existence of suffering has been filled with the deep and painful longing to truly connect with another human being on a level of true, deep, and meaningful love.
I long for nothing more than this, for this is truly all that matters.

Beautifully stated. Thank you. I understand.

 

[RumbleMan]

I've often thought about this. What would cause me to change my mind about ctb? If there were someone in my life who understood me and cared about me, I think I would change my mind - or at least make me thing twice.

I dont know if I would change my mind tbh…
I definitely would think twice. I have a good friend of mine who is also suicidal.
Maybe I'll do CTB with him if I dont want to die alone. At least we have each other… Greatful for that.

 

[RedHates]

Only the real love of another human being could ever change my mind not to CTB.
I view this dreadful world as a souless realm of suffering .
All of my entire existence of suffering has been filled with the deep and painful longing to truly connect with another human being on a level of true, deep, and meaningful love.
I long for nothing more than this, for this is truly all that matters.

I feel like I'm incapable of falling in love but it's the one thing I want to do more than anything. I have found that I'm asexual and that makes it a bit troubling. It makes it hard to differentiate my love from obsession.

 

[bed]

If my chronic pain magically disappeared and I returned to being physically healthy I'd probably reconsider.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me it would always be preferable to not exist regardless of the circumstances, I could never see it as being desirable being trapped in this harmful world where there is unlimited potential to suffer so endlessly, existing is so dreadful and unappealing to me.
And I think suicide is the best way to die anyway, we are all destined to die so I think it's always preferable to exit on my own terms, I could never wish to die a slow death from old age anyway, the thought of such a thing disturbs me, existence is just pointless in general, all that's inevitable for us is even more suffering, loss and decay, death is the only relief for me, I find eternal nothingness to be comforting.

 

[Darkover]

i need a miracle to fix a damaged brain and ears
my teeth back, my stomach fixing, my left arm fixing

 

[paranous]

If I were with someone with the same mindset as me, maybe I would think so too. but I know that this kind of person will not be easy to find, and frankly, it is difficult for me to search.

 

[FailerQt.]

The person I love the most returning my feelings. But that's never going to happen.

 

[Unattainable666]

If I were with someone with the same mindset as me, maybe I would think so too. but I know that this kind of person will not be easy to find, and frankly, it is difficult for me to search.

I understand where you're coming from. I feel so damaged (emotionally and mentally) I don't believe I would ever find anyone.

The person I love the most returning my feelings. But that's never going to happen.

May I be so bold as to ask why you don't believe that person would love you in return?

 

[The anhedonic one]

Beautifully stated. Thank you. I understand.

I feel like I'm incapable of falling in love but it's the one thing I want to do more than anything. I have found that I'm asexual and that makes it a bit troubling. It makes it hard to differentiate my love from obsession.

I never had a successful relationship in my teens and twenties because I was useless in bed.
I knew I was " different " to other guys because the other guys were always so horny and having sex.
I eventually isolated myself from women because I knew that I could never really give them what they wanted as regards sexual pleasure.
I have no sexual desire, yet can get turned on with stimulation.
Yet, I view the physical act of sex as somewhat uncomfortable.
I am sure that this is because I was abused as a child.
Yet I will not elaborate on what actually happened to me.

True love between two human beings doesn't require sex:
Kissing and hugging is a beautiful thing.
Sex just causes so many problems: people lie and cheat and hurt each other because of sex.
Whereas an asexual relationship is a pure one, based on the purest form of love.
I only found out about asexuality a couple of years ago.
I was astonished to find out that there are many more people like me in this world.
There are now many asexual dating sites out there.
Maybe there is someone out there waiting for someone just like you.

 

[delusionalgirl]

Nothing. Even if I didn't I would only have maybe 5-10 years before my mind was so gone I would have to be in care facility

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Nothing can change my mind about me ctb. I've thought about this for years. My top goal is ctb

When i was a kid and through most of my life I was living what society programmed me to think, believe and do or not do.

When i finally started thinking, researching reading then ctb for me has become more obvious and certain every day.

 

[The anhedonic one]

The person I love the most returning my feelings. But that's never going to happen.

Unrequited love is the most soul-crushing feeling imaginable.
I once gave a girl my heart and soul. I loved her so much that I would have literally died for her.
The love that I felt for her was way beyond description.
I felt as though I was no longer a whole human being without her, as though a part of my soul was missing without her.
I miss her so much that my loneliness without her shall surely kill me.

 

[SkyExists]

Money, money would change my mind forever, because in this horrible world, money is what rules over all.

 

[kunikuzushi]

Nothing because the concept of living and having to die, no matter if your life was great or not, disturbs me. I want to kill myself so I can choose when I die.

 

[jemetire]

I need a real friend… that's all!

 

[Parasitic]

To be able to have someone who loves me and for me to be able to love them back. Or an absolute boat load of money so I could spend my time doing charity work for animals or those less fortunate than I would be

 

[FailerQt.]

Unrequited love is the most soul-crushing feeling imaginable.
I once gave a girl my heart and soul. I loved her so much that I would have literally died for her.
The love that I felt for her was way beyond description.
I felt as though I was no longer a whole human being without her, as though a part of my soul was missing without her.
I miss her so much that my loneliness without her shall surely kill me.

I'm so sorry you had to go through that as well. It's as if some "force" above sends us the people we long for only to not be loved back by them and then that "force" is having a lot of fun watching it. At least that's how it feels like to me.
Idk what's more soul crushing for me tho, that we actually tried to see and build relationships (we met up for 2 weeks, we live pretty far away from each other) which didn't work or the reasons he gave me (they are really nasty, very opposite of what he was saying irl).

 

[day]

Being gender dysphoric is actually hell because I just want to feel normal and although I'm on HRT I just feel like a genetic freak now. Hoping one day I can feel like myself because as of now this actually feels untreatable. I'm not ready to give up but think about CTB way to much for my own good, I'm worried I'll snap on myself someday.

 

[Thisisme373]

£10,000,000. So I could pay privately to get my health fixed which terrible nhs are failing to help me with, buy a house away from people, no neighbours, never ever have to work or see people if I don't want, gets me completely away from my toxic family, can live very comfortably til the day I die, order food and shopping to be delivered, play video games, watch tv, & films on huge top of the range TV with surround sound, own gym, never have to worry about money or have to see humans, I would have cats & a dog, animals are way way better than humans, I prefer them by far.

 

[The anhedonic one]

I need a real friend… that's all!

I am here for you.

 

[Unattainable666]

I need a real friend… that's all

I can send you my resume and apply for the position :)

 

[day]

I need a real friend… that's all!

Omw with tons of support! Be there soon <3

 

[Unattainable666]

Omw with tons of support! Be there soon <3

You deserve to have a friend who will support you and care about you - don't settle for anything less.

 

[dofogry]

If I made friends that cared about me. But it's too late now.

I was even going to ctb last week but I started chatting with a guy online believing it could be the start of a new relationship (romantic or not). Turns out he only wanted sex and stoped talking to me after that.

Now I'm back to where I am, with absolute zero friends. Literally the only place I've been talking to people has been here.

 

[day]

You deserve to have a friend who will support you and care about you - don't settle for anything less.

Much love to you as well friend. Stay safe if possible.