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Disqualified from Being Human
- Apr 20, 2020
- 419
-Having close friends who are supportive
-Someone who I love loves me back
-Don't have mental issues like anxieties & ADHD
-Being financially stable
SpottedPanda
I'm all about coffee and cigarettes
- Jul 24, 2019
- 612
For me, I'd have to win big on the lottery. I doubt anything else would sustain a strong enough desire to live
Dreamless Sleep
The eternal night before chaos...
- Feb 1, 2020
- 190
So, just curious... are the bulk of your problems financial? Or do you just feel like having a crap ton of money would take your mind off your other troubles, at least for a while?
SpottedPanda
I'm all about coffee and cigarettes
- Jul 24, 2019
- 612
Well I have a place to live, and enough money to eat well, as well as some luxuries. It's all just so mediocre. For me to want to live long term, it'd simply have to be something wild, something out of the ordinary. I'd be able to have my own house, and do whatever I pleased, within reason.
As things stand, it's almost impossible to get out of this humdrum mediocre inevitability of it all.
Dreamless Sleep
The eternal night before chaos...
- Feb 1, 2020
- 190
Ahhh, yep. I get that.
Get up, make coffee, take the dogs out, feed the dogs, eat, work, watch tv, sleep.
I think the same thing all the time... this is the best life is ever gonna be. I'm going to do these same things, every day, until I die.
Its depressing af .
I do that daily last decade.. Just without coffee, tv and sleep.. Atleast dogs are good..
Deleted member 17949
Visionary
- May 9, 2020
- 2,238
Motivation. The desire to do anything that I can actually translate into the energy and mood needed to preform that task. It's all I want, to actually be able to do the things I want to do without being mentally exhausted after 5 minutes.
Baguette
Member
- Jun 28, 2020
- 90
If my autism could somehow be cured and I got rich and was able to buy a desert island and live there for the rest of my days alone with only food deliveries coming. Basically get away from society. That's the only scenario where I would want to live(both would need to happen) yet the first one is impossible and the second part is highly unlikely.I used to think it was just money...but it's not.
I would need to be able to figure out my ADHD/severe anxiety and hold down a job that has purpose. I have a desire to work hard...I just don't know at what. And part of that desire is to just be immersed in something that stops my racing thoughts, or at least alleviates it.
But even then, I'm not sure that's enough. That stuff is just to function. To actually be happy, I would have to have some kind of spiritual sign that everyone's eventually going to be OK. Without that, every day is still going to be a battle. I'm not sure that's a winnable one over the duration of an entire lifetime.No anxiety. Money enough to be completely financially free and to fix my sagging body and face.
That said, it may help me for a while, but I still don't have a lot to live for so I may get bored with time and still want to ctb.To have had a mother who loved meLast edited:
Brick In The Wall
2M Or Not 2B.
- Oct 30, 2019
- 25,157
I don't think anything will ever make them go away. It's been a life long struggle for me and I've just basically accepted it at this point.
Stavrogin
If God not be, then this world dies with me
- Jul 1, 2020
- 201
EmbraceOfTheVoid
Part Time NEET - Full Time Suicidal
- Mar 29, 2020
- 689
A healthy brain like many people on here have mentioned but I'd only want that that under the assumption that I retain my life experiences, my morality, and my thought process or I wouldn't be who I am(I don't want to be a delusional pro-life optimist).
lostangel
Enlightened
- Mar 22, 2019
- 1,051
I think the one thing that would rise above everything else would be a soulmate who I can share my problems with. I could say money, a loving family but no. I really think finding someone preferably of the opposite sex who I could share ANYTHING with, will make this life a bearable experience.
But the chances of finding someone like that are less than 1 percent. I think.
NomadicWolf382
I want to drift into the lucid dream, endlessly...
- Jun 11, 2020
- 131
Waking up and realizing that the past 18 years were nothing but a long nightmare.
terry_a_davis
Warlock
- Dec 28, 2019
- 707
raindrops
Someday, eventually
- Mar 29, 2020
- 484
My ex-partner, he's all I want. I've been single 5 months now. Met up with him 3 times, got intimate and I just want him to want me back and make things better between us.
He tells me he doesn't know what he wants, he said we're meant to be, then the 3rd time I saw him cried because he misses this other girl who lives hundreds of miles away btw. Just want him back, I want to believe he will want me, eventually in time :/
WillOxyWork
Student
- Jul 4, 2020
- 126
If my tinnitus and vision problems were to spontaneously heal, I would have no real desire to ctbI would take a life time supply of drugs. My brain is too fucked to live life with it clean.I'd probably need to be a god. Doesn't have to be here, I'd prefer it to be elsewhere, but I'd need to just be alone in my sandboxI would need a profound, radical, dynamic social shift that tears our present culture out at the root and wipes it out of the collective human memory. There would be no more banks, money, laws, judges, corporations or jails. Our elderly would have the wisdom to guide rather than the selfishness of "I got mine!" materialism and antisocial behavior. We would recognize our place within nature-- not as something weirdly separate from it. No more exploiting the earth as a capitalistic commodity or sealing it off like an untouchable museum exhibit. People would have the freedom to be nomadic again without getting harassed for sleeping on the side of the road. Air, water and space would never be commodified and the idea that such things ever could be commodified would be blasted from the collective human memory. Social groups would return to, say, 50 or so members so that we re-learn WHY we're all different and the importance of valuing one another. People would be free to build their own homes based on their own creativity and ingenuity without worrying about the city coming to tear it down if it's not up to code. No more factory farms, no more rent or mortgages, no more employers, no more narcissistic control.
The only thing that would get me to stay is a freedom that no longer exists.
CarbonMonoxide
Marejeo ni ngamani
- Oct 13, 2019
- 371
The ability to walk on the street without feeling as though everyone knows me, hates me and is plotting to kill me. My life would be fine without social anxiety.
miserable247
Member
- Jun 11, 2020
- 12
Wow...that's a hard one. Currently, there is nothing I could change to take the urges away because it's something that has been in my life for 10 years now. It's so deeply embedded in my soul that it's one of those things that just can't go away. All the money in the world could never change it. I could have the money and the success and friends, but I know I would still feel so so low. But one thing I wish I could do, is to go back in time with the knowledge I have now. I can just imagine the confidence I'd have. I wouldnt be walked all over and I'd actually know my worth.Similar threads
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