Discussion What will you miss?

[pymeow]

SN is quite difficult to get, I'm alive because I haven't gotten my hands on it. I'm hopeful that I will in 2 weeks to a month, with it in my possession, I'll give life a second chance, knowing that I could end it any time I feel like.
I haven't lived, I hope things would just get better, in a way that my pain goes away and I live on...
I'm obsessed with a lot of things that I'm gonna miss:
1.Gaming: I love one game, Garena Free Fire, I have a bunch of friends that I play with every day, they don't know how empty I feel when they are offline
2.Food: I've been eating just because it's obligatory and starving is painful, food tastes soapy, idk why and I miss the days when I could just enjoy meals
3.My family and friends, I love them and they love me-dad, mom, my sisters...3 best friends— I hate it that I will hurt them, they could do anything for me but they can't help me.
4.Science: I enjoyed studying MBBS, haven't gone to school since I lost myself, I love Science videos from Veritasium and Be Smart
5.Music: I miss the days when songs made me happy
6.Upcoming TV shows...the Boys S6
7.I'll miss my dream life, always wanted to be a family-oriented dad, value my kids, and let them touch the snow—they can't do that in Africa...
I can't retire my parents...and this gives me a panic attack, will continue...

 

[scary]

im gonna miss my cats a lot, but one of them's in heaven so maybe ill see him again one day

 

[behindtheveil]

Good Luck for your second chance. Hopefully everything works out.

 

[scentoflavender]

drawing... my cats... some games

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

i'll miss nothing from this horrible evil world and evil life

the constant worst pain outweighs the pleasurable garbage like watching a clickbait video by a billion times

the pleasure addictions stole my time i could've used to decide and get a suicide method ready to go and do it. so i hate those the most

much more to this

 

[Alek1=]

I won't be so I won't miss anything. I miss things right now and that's the problem

 

[sadgirl1997]

My kids, my cats, plants, food, my 6 little sisters, my mom, my dad, my hometown, everyone that was kind to me, the people that I felt weren't kind to me, everyone and everything on this planet

 

[pymeow]

Good Luck for your second chance. Hopefully everything works out.

Hopefully, but sometimes I don't want things to get better anyway, I resent life for being harsh to me...I have recent failed attempts and it makes me realize that I'm living on overtime...infuriating, maddening

 

[Matchaaa]

I'll miss things I've never even experienced—like Bristol in the UK, and all kinds of beautiful places and amazing food around the world. It's a pity that I'll probably never get the chance to experience them in this lifetime.

 

[pymeow]

im gonna miss my cats a lot, but one of them's in heaven so maybe ill see him again one

I'll miss things I've never even experienced—like Bristol in the UK, and all kinds of beautiful places and amazing food around the world. It's a pity that I'll probably never get the chance to experience them in this lifetime.

It's sad, always wanted to visit a shooting range and fire, but I don't think it's going to happen

 

[Unsure and Useless]

1. My friends: Even though we've grown distant, I'll definitely miss all my friends. Had I been less fucked up, I would've loved to spend more time with them without having to deal with these ugly feelings
2. Food: I'm picky, but I love food
3. Stories: They're my main form of escapism for a reason. Beyond being a temporary reprieve from reality, I just enjoy seeing the tales people can weave with their imagination, and the fact that, if I go through with this, I'll never be able to enjoy a story again is something that often makes me hesitate
4. Music: I love music. It's my lifeblood. I don't think I can live without music

 

[northerner]

music. my biggest fear with hanging is that i'll survive but have lost my ability to sing. if dead people could miss things, i'll absoloutly miss my voice. and my piano. i like to think my piano will miss me, too.