Discussion What will you miss?

[pymeow]

SN is quite difficult to get, I'm alive because I haven't gotten my hands on it. I'm hopeful that I will in 2 weeks to a month, with it in my possession, I'll give life a second chance, knowing that I could end it any time I feel like.
I haven't lived, I hope things would just get better, in a way that my pain goes away and I live on...
I'm obsessed with a lot of things that I'm gonna miss:
1.Gaming: I love one game, Garena Free Fire, I have a bunch of friends that I play with every day, they don't know how empty I feel when they are offline
2.Food: I've been eating just because it's obligatory and starving is painful, food tastes soapy, idk why and I miss the days when I could just enjoy meals
3.My family and friends, I love them and they love me-dad, mom, my sisters...3 best friends— I hate it that I will hurt them, they could do anything for me but they can't help me.
4.Science: I enjoyed studying MBBS, haven't gone to school since I lost myself, I love Science videos from Veritasium and Be Smart
5.Music: I miss the days when songs made me happy
6.Upcoming TV shows...the Boys S6
7.I'll miss my dream life, always wanted to be a family-oriented dad, value my kids, and let them touch the snow—they can't do that in Africa...
I can't retire my parents...and this gives me a panic attack, will continue...

 

[scary]

im gonna miss my cats a lot, but one of them's in heaven so maybe ill see him again one day

 

[behindtheveil]

Good Luck for your second chance. Hopefully everything works out.

 

[scentoflavender]

drawing... my cats... some games

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

i'll miss nothing from this horrible evil world and evil life

the constant worst pain outweighs the pleasurable garbage like watching a clickbait video by a billion times

the pleasure addictions stole my time i could've used to decide and get a suicide method ready to go and do it. so i hate those the most

much more to this

 

[Alek1=]

I won't be so I won't miss anything. I miss things right now and that's the problem

 

[sadgirl1997]

My kids, my cats, plants, food, my 6 little sisters, my mom, my dad, my hometown, everyone that was kind to me, the people that I felt weren't kind to me, everyone and everything on this planet

 

[pymeow]

Good Luck for your second chance. Hopefully everything works out.

Hopefully, but sometimes I don't want things to get better anyway, I resent life for being harsh to me...I have recent failed attempts and it makes me realize that I'm living on overtime...infuriating, maddening

 

[Matchaaa]

I'll miss things I've never even experienced—like Bristol in the UK, and all kinds of beautiful places and amazing food around the world. It's a pity that I'll probably never get the chance to experience them in this lifetime.