What was your triggering moment for ctb in short?

[BFishy]

Mine was the last time from many of being thrown away for someone else

 

[DeathNoot]

My best friend of 15+ years, cut me out of her life without warning. I was suicidal before that but I lived through the entirety of high school just because I didn't want to do that to her. She cut everyone out of her life so it wasn't about me really but that doesn't help much.

 

[Notabadguy]

I took an utterly wrong decision last year. It's not a strong reason to CTB but I feel that my life has come to an end in various aspects. I feel like a child, not an adult. I feel ashamed about my wrong decision. It's almost entirely my fault. I'm clinical depressed. I'm sure that most people will carry on, but I'm not able to do it. Moreover, I have a very ugly hemifacial spasm that would not get better. I know it's not too much, but it's enough for me.

My condolences....mine did too last year. I know the feeling involved. I wish I could give you a hug rn.

I'm sorry. That is one of the two reasons that keep me away from CTB. Because I don't want to inflict pain on my loving parents (I'm 39, but they are the mainstains of my life).

 

[Blu_1]

When I realized how nasty and aweful human nature really is.

This is one of the biggest contributing factors for me among others. It appears no amount of love can fix that issue, or the world seems to be just fine carrying out the way it is. I know I cannot change anything but me and my response. But everyone has a breaking point wondering "how much more can I take?" Endless disappointment, with no foreseeable amendment in the human condition nor feeling society's intention to improve makes me one very burnt out individual, just like a professional getting fed up at work, figuratively speaking.

 

[Jon86]

A decade of declining physical health, was my breaking point. That was 10 years ago, so i've been suicidal for a decade, continuously now (20 years of depression).

I've had over 100 doctors/specialists appointments for my various ailments, been on paleo, plant based, keto, carnivore diets etc. have been lean with abs most of this time and exercised daily but my health just gets worse.

Life becomes a sick twisted nightmare when you put in maximum effort only to receive ever worsening outcomes...so fucked up, can't help but laugh at times.

 

[RileyTanaka]

A day in 2016 wrecked me physically forever. Since then I'm not truly living, just surviving and appearing to function despite suffering. I haven't lived fully since then.

 

[miseryh8scompany]

A decade of declining physical health, was my breaking point. That was 10 years ago, so i've been suicidal for a decade, continuously now (20 years of depression).

I've had over 100 doctors/specialists appointments for my various ailments, been on paleo, plant based, keto, carnivore diets etc. have been lean with abs most of this time and exercised daily but my health just gets worse.

Life becomes a sick twisted nightmare when you put in maximum effort only to receive ever worsening outcomes...so fucked up, can't help but laugh at times.

I hear you, I cry and pray and beg, then just start laughing at how evil and twisted life is. Literally every time I apply myself, clean up my act, work hard I develop some new horrible mental or physical health issue that doctors can't help. I used to bodybuild, travel, party, play in a band, had a great job. Now I'm a lonely cripple watching life pass me by. I would like to CTB before my 40th birthday

 

[painoflife]

Rape, nothing can fix it or take away the memories

 

[Hollow Point]

the triggering moment was when i was facing being homeless. I failed and here i am, still sick of this shit barely clinging onto hope.

 

[whereispeace]

Being born.

 

[Lara Francis]

Emotional pain and heartache.

 

[Overnoutofhere]

My husband committed suicide 2 months ago, I have been trying to CTB since then