what was your guys first attempt like.

[anomic]

how was your first attempt what did you do and how did it fail and did it change anything.

20g of Advil and nothing happened except an hour of the most painful dry heaving I've ever had and an involuntary inpatient stay. I almost died in my sleep since I took trazodone before sleeping and didn't ever wake up to vomit, however I'm not a back sleeper.

 

[skeletontree]

My first attempt was impulsive. I was around 13 or 14. At that time, I would always wish or pray "not to wake up the next morning" when I went to bed. One night, I grabbed a pillow and tried to suffocate myself. Thirteen-year-old me had no idea that it's not actually easy to suffocate yourself (especially with a pillow) so that's why it failed. The intention to die was there, but there wasn't much thought put into the method or execution. No one noticed what happened. I just sat there for hours, cried, and eventually fell asleep. The next day, I went to school (aka hell/warzone) acted like everything was fine, and pretended it was just another normal day.

 

[hitagi-crab]

I was 12. I tried to hang myself with my belt in my room but it was kinda mediocre in terms of execution (obviously). I ended up just lying on the floor pulling on the belt and that's how my sister found me. my mom had been really mad at me and had just left the house and driven off suddenly and I was scared she was going to kill herself and I wanted to show her I was sorry for being 'bad' (I forgot to check my scores at a practice track meet that day and she got really upset lol). I didn't tell my parents until I was mid-20s. my sister never brought it up either so I went through life thinking she never realized what I was doing. wasn't even the most upsetting thing that happened that day frankly.

 

[primadonna_]

Okay so I was like 8 or 9 and my mom just got done screaming her head off at me so I went to her bathroom and just ate a TON of lotion. Like a ton. Like I was just looking for things with the poison control label on them and I found the lotion and I just thought "well, this is all I have." and just started going. It taste exactly how it smells, not good.

 

[Abyss Dweller]

I was I think 16 or 17. Wrote a goodbye letter, put it on the table then tried to hang myself using a belt from heat pipes. But as soon as I stepped off the bed SI kicked in and I stepped back.

 

[NameOfAction]

Okay so I was like 8 or 9 and my mom just got done screaming her head off at me so I went to her bathroom and just ate a TON of lotion. Like a ton. Like I was just looking for things with the poison control label on them and I found the lotion and I just thought "well, this is all I have." and just started going. It taste exactly how it smells, not good.

Yo! You just unlocked a memory. When I was 7 my father was about to belt me for something and my mother screamed at me.
So I grabbed a large screwdriver off the table and threatened my mom with it, kinda like taking a hostage. I screamed for them to back away so I could run, and when they did, I turned the screwdriver on myself and threatened to jam it into my heart, making myself a hostage. I slowly backed away and escaped to the bathroom.

I never considered it an attempt before, because the intent was to get away, not to die. (I was eventually belted anyway)

 

[VanillaBeam]

I tried to hang myself when I was 16 with a belt wedged in the top of a doorway. I stopped because the feeling of passing out was too uncomfortable/got too scared to go through with it.

 

[certified_idiot]

Tried to suffocate myself with a blanket when I was 10. I had gotten in trouble with my parents again, and, recognizing the cycle, decided that if I was dead, they'd be too sad to be mad at me. I didn't get very far lol

 

[aushunaph]

my first attempt was with a bunch of iron supplements. my parents found me crying and took me to the hospital. it didn't even reach toxicity in my blood. i was send to the psych ward and it made everything so much worse.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Recent, half assed attempts at FSH. Best I could do was hang for a second with my hands on the rope, bloodying my big thumb knuckles. It hurts so much. I don't know what to do.

 

[a4001]

I was 11 and took all my mom's birth control thinking that would fuck me over lmaooooooo