What valuable items have you destroyed under manic / psychotic episodes?

[TakeMeToHeaven]

Personally, I've broke a few laptops. Having this mental illness is financially draining.

 

[Gangrel]

I want to break things but the financial trauma i suffered before is way too much for me to actually do it. Compassion for those who do it though because it's mostly seem as crazy, but i understand they are desperate and not in a right state of mind.

 

[TakeMeToHeaven]

I want to break things but the financial trauma i suffered before is way too much for me to actually do it. Compassion for those who do it though because it's mostly seem as crazy, but i understand they are desperate and not in a right state of mind.

yeah for example the 1000$ laptop I have that I broke during the psychotic episode, I lost all rationality/reason during that phase and would never do it under a normal state of mind

now all i'm left with is regret and a struggle to earn money again to buy a new PC

sometimes I'm afraid of how little control I have over my life, and my own actions... it's like I don't have free will at times...

 

[pulleditnearlyoff]

A kitchen cabinet, a mirror, glass door. Also punching myself in the head and kicked my cat. Not proud of it! But losing all control sometimes.

 

[TakeMeToHeaven]

A kitchen cabinet, a mirror, glass door. Also punching myself in the head and kicked my cat. Not proud of it! But losing all control sometimes.

Now that you mention it, I have also unintentionally abused my dog in the past while under a psychotic episode. I regretted it so much that I had my parents re-home him. I miss him so much, but it's for the best, you don't want a mentally ill owner to take care of a dog.

 

[LifeQuitter]

I threw out some things from around the house that were scaring me although nothing really valuable.

 

[untothedepths]

yep!! i get angry, and my brain loves making me feel like someone shot my dog or something haha. ive broken a lot of stuff, but its mostly random, but there have been times i broke someting valuable. funny enough i dont give a shit right after but hours later im crying about what i did like i killed someone or something lmao

 

[whywere]

When I get melt downs, I get so mad that I forget 99% of what I have said.

Broken items 1) desktop computer 2) printer 3) cell phone.

The worst for me is a broken mind and heart. When I trust someone in business and they turn around and stab my in the back because of money and/or a power play, the broken mind and heart is more damaging to/for me than any desktop that I have ever broken.

Walter

 

[noname223]

Gladly nothing. I am pretty pretty harmless when I am manic or psychotic. My sister once hit me in my face to become clear minded again. What a bitch. And now she wonders why I am not interested to have contact with her.

I have done close to nothing actually. I only study like a horse till I collapse thanks mom for abusing me like that so much that I fully internalized it.
In cringe ways I tried to approach women. But in very harmless ways. Some giggled nothing more. But I almost killed myself over it because I felt so embarrassed. The shame was so extreme while actually nothing happened. Gladly. There are videos of psychotic people running naked through the supermarket or airport and those videos went viral. I really feel sorry for them. The pain must be unbearable.

I plan to kill myself after the next psychosis. The pain afterwards was unbearable hellish.

 

[dietcokecan]

I destroyed my relationship with my sister, if that counts

 

[fwompie]

Nowadays, relationships ..
As a teen I broke my phone, smeared stuff on a wall, ripped up stuffed animals to check for ??? I don't remember. Ruined my relationship with my siblings by threatening them, broke my relationship with my parents by threatening them.
Hurt myself, my pets and once I purposefully cycled over a hedgehog. I am a disgusting person and honestly should never be in contact with anybody ever again.