My mother found out of my self-harm for a third time. The first two times were in high school and I managed to slither around it then (I'm as confused as you are). She assumed I've moved on (first year in uni now). This time, she came over an hour after I relapsed and I forgot to clean some blood left. I admitted to feeling depressed but not to my suicidality. I like to take substances like alcohol and weed with friends which helps me be happy, but is it worth it to leave those and be sober when my friends are having fun just to take antidepressants? Is there anything I can consider while continuing taking edibles and drinking? I don't think I'd get better without antidepressants or something of that sort. My parents are worried for me and are pressuring me to get help. I don't mind getting help at this point but I want to continue taking substances. Also, my parents do not know I take any substances.
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- Jun 24, 2025
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You won't be able to immediately cut out bad habits even if you want to. It always takes time to slowly get used to coping without them. Try to replace self harm with something you enjoy or something that brings you comfort, like listening to music for instance. And about the substances, you don't necessarily need to stop doing them but just be careful not to overdo it. I hope things go well for you.
No you don't need to stop using substances.
For "addictions" like self harm I think it's good to keep a record of times you SH so you can measure your progress, it gives you something to aim for
doener11
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- Jun 17, 2023
- 27
Well you don't have to leave behind the alcohol or the weed. Are you banned from taking those substances while on antidepressants (I've never been on them before, just wondering)? From my experience, I managed to get out of my depression while still drinking relatively frequently, I imagine it is similar for you with the weed as well. It's definitely a bad decision to cut them out if they make you happy, especially as it is something you are doing with your friends, however if they are the things causing or making it worse, then cut it out or slim it down.
