I can rarely cry these days because of this. I hate it because like you, I usually feel better afterward. At least, more calm and have less anxiety. I hate the feeling of wanting to cry but not able to. I've always been more prone to crying when I'm super angry, extremely irritated or feeling even more overwhelmed by stress than usual, which also ties into the first two. Still, it doesn't happen a lot anymore. Usually I have to watch sad videos to get the water running. Things like animals grieving deaths are most likely to do it for me. Sometimes songs at the right moment work. Doesn't even have to be sad songs. This past year, it's usually the nostalgic ones that hurt. So even feel good songs are sometimes just too painfully bittersweet. I actually have to change the song a lot times because I often can't handle it.