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NoPoint2Life

NoPoint2Life

Why is this so hard?
Aug 31, 2024
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I see threads about the last time we cried, but I physically am unable to. I know medication can make it harder to cry, so I would think it was that but the really strange thing was for about six months before I even started medication. I could not cry either. Then I got stoic, tried to ctb without shedding a single tear. Then that changed, and I cried all last summer after starting medication before attempting ctb again and it was such a different experience. Now I don't think I have shed a tear in about a year since I was in a group IOP. I used to sob at everything on tv. This feels so strange. I feel like I wouldn't even be able to cry if both of my parents died right now. Which would Make me totally embarrassed and feel more like a freak than I already do.
 
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froggirl9000

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Feb 4, 2023
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I have not been able to cry since at least 2019. I've teared up sometimes, gotten as close as I can but never really passed the threshold. It's incredibly frustrating, feels like my emotions are completely bottled up and physically can't be released.
 
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NoPoint2Life

NoPoint2Life

Why is this so hard?
Aug 31, 2024
955
I have not been able to cry since at least 2019. I've teared up sometimes, gotten as close as I can but never really passed the threshold. It's incredibly frustrating, feels like my emotions are completely bottled up and physically can't be released.

Last year when it happened, it was much more frustrating because like you I felt emotional and wanted to cryand wasn't able to release it. This time I don't even feel emotional. weird
 
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Chex

Member
Aug 15, 2023
40
The only thing that can make me almost start to cry is the thought of my dad finding my lifeless body and how that would make him feel
 
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username90493486

Something...
Feb 6, 2024
801
I'm dry, but unlike other users my emotions aren't bottled, they just aren't lol. Many years ago I still could feel very sad and still never cried a drop.
 
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shadow999

shadow999

Student
Sep 6, 2024
126
It's been months for me. It sucks. I miss my emotions. Idk why this is happening to me.
 
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Hollowman

Empty
Dec 14, 2021
2,342
I haven't cried since February my brain's really fried.
 
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lotus11

lotus11

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May 18, 2019
384
I never cry at anything sad, not for as long as I can remember. Only 2 specific times over a boy i was in love with but couldn't be with and that is literally it. I only cry at being exhausted very occasionally bit that's all...
 
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Sadgirl121

Sadgirl121

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Dec 12, 2023
46
I very rarely cry. I've cried twice i front of my therapist over the last year, and once on shrooms.. haven't cried since
 
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Davey40210

Davey40210

Even the stars make room for new stars
Sep 3, 2024
339
I did not cry since my childhood.. Exactly the same as OP I simply could not. It even went so far that I really tried to cry and release my feelings. But I really couldn't.

And then when I broke up with my ex a few months ago I started crying all the time. Drinking coffee at a bar, in the bus, in the plane. It's like some switch was turned. I started crying and became suicidal. And my hands started shaking as well and when I thought about my ex I even feel the need to throw up. It's like my body is in shock.
 
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