What sets your date?

[Soulless_Angel]

I see so many people setting a date, what makes you set a date, is there a reason you are holding out, or is the date meaningful to you?
Just curiosity i guess

 

[Lastravel]

For multiple reasons : I will be alone at home for approximately a week, need to set up the method and products to arrive, give me time to reconsider my decision and maybe change my mind, try a last therapy, try a last medication (or not), have less regret when eventually ctb if I take this time

 

[PrettyMoose]

For me it is a court date set in June that I'd rather not make. It isn't the sole reason for my suicide but it is a nice excuse to have a set plan of exit. I didn't hurt anybody, just smoked a little weed. Such a ridiculous world. Glad to be leaving.

 

[Deleted member 14386]

I want one more summer. Also I'm kinda on a bit of a ctb-watch with people around me, so by the time the bus arrives I don't think I'll have the current restrictions on me

 

[s1mplem3]

I don't really have any specific date, it's all about circumstances and now I see it's just useless to plan anything, I think I'll be more lucky to CTB impulsively or spontaneously.

 

[GreyMagic]

No special reasons as to why picked the dates I did. Main reason is they were the last set of dates my chosen place for ctb had before changing to summer prices.

 

[Pryras]

I can't set a date personally because my emotions change all the time. Some days are better than others and I'm a chronic procrastinator so there's that. Ending the pain is very real but I'm holding on for something I'm not sure what or for how long

 

[C_F]

I have a deadline... by August or September. Almost finished getting my ducks in order, ie. burial paid for, will. Then, anytime after that but before the holiday season.

 

[ReadytoCtb]

I have a date set for April 1st of this year. My final court for my divorce is set on March 24th this will give me plenty of time to get my affairs in order before drinking my sn. I would have gone sooner but I was hoping my intuition or my prompting that I heard God's voice that I wasn't getting a divorce was true, which gave me hope, however I must be wrong. I clearly cannot hear God's voice. Having said that I feel like I don't have any hope that my future will be good. My relationship with God has kept me hear on this Earth for 41 yrs. I could of swore I knew God was telling me he would be restoring my relationship with my wife. Seeing that I am clearly wrong, and I don't trust that I hear from God so I find it best for me to exit this world and find the peace I need. I believe that I will enter into heaven even if I commit suicide so I am not scared. What frieghtens me more is continuing living without having direction from the holy spirit. I know this may sound off, however, if I can't hear from God then I don't want to live anymore.

 

[selfhater]

i don't set dates usually i just do it everyday whenever i had the chance until i succeed but this time i put a date cuz my family won't be home that date

 

[SimplyTopHat]

Last-ditch-effort to make it work before my date: therapy, school, placement... just trying to make my life better, if it's possible. I won't say the exact date aloud, but for now baring unforeseeable circumstances, April.

 

[ReadytoCtb]

For some reason my account doesn't allow me to make a new post. So I am choosing to update everyone here in this thread.

Well, it's happening. I am going to ctb tonight. I will be having my last meal here in about 30-40 minutes. Then I will fast for 8 hrs and I am choosing to go the SN route. There is no more hope for me. My wife wants a divorce, I lost my business, ruined my credit, barely get to see my boys due if I do it has to be supervised by her. There is so much more behind this story. I just don't have the energy or emotional strength to explain. I wish all you guys the best.

 

[Cosmiq]

I don't have a specific date, just certain periods when I think it's a decent amount of time away from birthdays or holidays my family did huge celebrations. So like August, Nov, Jan, and February. Any time during those months would be my date depending on when I felt ready. If my birthday wasn't so close to my mom's I'm pretty sure I'd pick it.

 

[ReadytoCtb]

I don't have a specific date, just certain periods when I think it's a decent amount of time away from birthdays or holidays my family did huge celebrations. So like August, Nov, Jan, and February. Any time during those months would be my date depending on when I felt ready. If my birthday wasn't so close to my mom's I'm pretty sure I'd pick it.

I was going to do my birthday. However, I can't wait. I need to have a place where I won't be found for a while. So my rental property will be empty until June 1st. So I had to move my date up. I am ready to go though. Hopefully, you find a reason to stay. If not may you have peace when you decide to ctb.
Posting here my day up until I ctb. Well, I just ordered some Mexican street tacos and having a coke as my last meal.
Posting here my day up until I ctb tonight. Well, I just ordered some Mexican street tacos and having a coke as my last meal.
Posting here my day up until I ctb tonight. Well, I just ordered some Mexican street tacos and having a coke as my last meal.

I see so many people setting a date, what makes you set a date, is there a reason you are holding out, or is the date meaningful to you?
Just curiosity i guess

Posting here my day up until I ctb tonight. Well, I just ordered some Mexican street tacos and having a coke as my last meal.

 

[Cosmiq]

I was going to do my birthday. However, I can't wait. I need to have a place where I won't be found for a while. So my rental property will be empty until June 1st. So I had to move my date up. I am ready to go though. Hopefully, you find a reason to stay. If not may you have peace when you decide to ctb.

Thanks, and I hope you find peace as well.
Also, It's looking more and more like August. By then my finances will have run out and it will be difficult to continue living in my place unless the government extends the funds for unemployment. I'm putting only a small bit of effort in my job search because it's such a niche skill.
I could not tolerate living with my father nor my mother and stepfather. I love my mother and though she can be overbearing, but my stepfather is worse. He reacted very negatively when I was hospitalized and insisted I go live with my father.
And though I didn't clash much with my father, it was mostly due to me avoiding him so much that I wouldn't eat and would painfully hold off using the restroom until I was sure he was asleep or not home. His mindset gives less hope than I already have, but he imposes the idea that we live in a horrible society and our only choice is to endure it. Many hear feel hopeless, but don't force anyone else to agree with them. Most look for similar mindsets, or want to see different perceptions. I feel like if I lived with my father I'd ctb, but it would not be in the headspace I'd want because I know it wouldn't be a choice because I wanted peace and escape, but one without any dignity.

 

[heraclitus]

I need to make sure my family is provided for - and maybe get back once to my spiritual home.

 

[LMLN]

I do not have a date set, but rather a time frame. It will be somewhat impulsive, but carefully pre-planned. It will be a Sunday since I am alone on Sundays. It's anytime between now up to October, before the holiday season for sure. Having a date set is too much pressure, but everything is ready so that when the time comes I can put my plan into action.
But having a date helps some. Everyone is different.

 

[ReadytoCtb]

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I do not have a date set, but rather a time frame. It will be somewhat impulsive, but carefully pre-planned. It will be a Sunday since I am alone on Sundays. It's anytime between now up to October, before the holiday season for sure. Having a date set is too much pressure, but everything is ready so that when the time comes I can put my plan into action.
But having a date helps some. Everyone is different.

I hear you. I have set many dates. Sunday sounds like a pleasant choice. I agree everyone is different. I am choosing to go tonight. I just had my last meal about 20 minutes ago. I am really nervous and don't want to go. But tonight works out to be my best option. I can ctb in my rental property now that it is vacant and I think no one will find me for at least one day, which in adequate time for SN route.

 

[madbananas]

For me it is a court date set in June that I'd rather not make. It isn't the sole reason for my suicide but it is a nice excuse to have a set plan of exit. I didn't hurt anybody, just smoked a little weed. Such a ridiculous world. Glad to be leaving.

I'm so sorry. The system disgusts me. Putting people through the trauma of court etc because of weed. Again, I'm so sorry you're going through this.

 

[Saddaisy]

I'm holding out until my cat is gone. There will be no one to take care of her once I'm gone and she is the only thing I have so I'll stay for her.

 

[Jumper Geo]

I find it difficult to set a date at the moment I will wait until things return to near as normal as possible so I can choose a hotel or able to travel to a nice forest without any trouble.

 

[GravityUtilizer]

I find it difficult to set a date at the moment I will wait until things return to near as normal as possible so I can choose a hotel or able to travel to a nice forest without any trouble.

Hey you not jumping then? Mind if I ask why not?

 

[Jumper Geo]

Hey you not jumping then? Mind if I ask why not?

After skydiving and going on a balloon ride at 10,000 feet my original plan was to jump from Beachy Head but then I realized I am scared of heights, still, never say never I could have a good booze up and fly of the top. I would rather do a 7 night Kenyan Safari and have a balloon ride across the Masai Mara on my last morning and then jump like the video below, if the fall doesn't kill you, the animals will.



Cheers

Geo

 

[ssaaahmo]

I'm going to kill myself the day my twin died