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Peace2peace

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Dec 26, 2024
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Depression
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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Do you mean diagnosed or, just more things we struggle with?

Of the diagnosed type: I've only been diagnosed with mild to moderate depression years and years ago. I'm not sure masses has changed in terms of mood so- perhaps that. There again, it's not entirely debilitating. I can make myself do things. It's just a horrible struggle.

As for mental states I struggle with: anxiety, especially social anxiety, doubt in myself on all levels, lethargy, reluctance, frustration, grief.

I believe I also used to struggle with limerence (obsessive crushes on guys) and, borderline eating disorders. I've managed to get both of them more under control now.
 
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Blo0d_doll

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Feb 13, 2025
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anxiety and borderline disorder
 
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Anonymousa

Get me Out
Sep 21, 2024
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In terms of diagnosed mental illnesses I have are depression and anxiety but I have other mental issues such as fear of abandonment, intense emotions, feelings of emptiness, occasional self harm, and thoughts and desires that give me intense guilt, shame and self-loathing. I also have autism.

I used to suffer more from gender dysphoria and had anorexia but have recovered thanks to hrt.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,997
My struggle is a result of being burdened with this existence and I see existence as the most cruel, futile burden that there was never a need for, more than anything I wish I never existed, I wish I was never forced into this horrific reality where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to decay and die anyway and I really struggle from how I cannot just have the option to die painlessly in an guaranteed way and never suffer ever again. I just want permanent peace and relief from all suffering and as long as I exist I'll only wish to be gone, I see existence itself as the ultimate problem and I'd just never wish for any of this, I see it as deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence and it's suffering I was never meant for, for me non-existence truly is all that's positive, I just want to fall asleep permanently and never suffer ever again.
 
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sadalways

sadalways

My birth was an error
Sep 5, 2024
292
I have anxiety and autism diagnosed. Those two paired together, at least for me, just make it impossible to have any social interactions. I suspect i'd have depression too but i never even mentioned it to my doctor in fears of being put in a mental hospital and i don't wanna self diagnose.
 
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sximii

sximii

meow
Dec 4, 2024
187
diagnosed Autism and borderline personality disorder. Then obviously also depression, which before meds was so severe I was catatonic and practically disabled. And severe self harm, it got to the point I go as deep as the fat tissue. But considering autism and bpd are chronic, my brain is basically hardwired to feel like shit all the time. No matter what I do. And I'm too lazy to write an essay on what they both do so you can look it up if you want
 
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Darkover

Archangel
Jul 29, 2021
5,649
cognitive impairment and inability to concentrate due to a brain injury due to being in a constant state of discomfort
 
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Hotsackage

Enlightened
Mar 11, 2019
1,184
Worst ocd, depression, dpdr, brain fog(concentration issues), generalized anxiety, some other crap, list goes on
 
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ramon

Student
Aug 10, 2024
164
Diagnosed by three psychiatrists: OCD
Self-diagnosed: C-PTSD, IED, and adult autism
 
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~GeminiVII~

~GeminiVII~

well, maybe i was destined to disappear~
Oct 8, 2021
23
diagnosed with clinical depression and social anxiety. suffered with anorexia, bulimia and body dysmorphia a lot throughout my life. doctors have also said i have possible PTSD, though my eyes have kinda been opened up to the thought of C-PTSD from severe childhood bullying. bundle of joy i am
 
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Ligottian

Enlightened
Dec 19, 2021
1,279
I would put anxiety at the top, with numerous of its different "flavors". Depression, with obvious suicidal ideation. And just plain old low functioning in everyday life.
 
milkteacrown

milkteacrown

suicidal angel
Feb 16, 2025
128
I have five mental illnessss diagnosed. The three that cause me to be here the most are PTSD (C-PTSD), BPD, and MDD.
 
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deletednumber

Enlightened
Apr 29, 2021
1,603
Life is my mental struggle
 
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Languish

Languish

A Flower of Flesh and Blood
Feb 7, 2025
127
Bipolar 2 with Major Depression, Schizophrenia, OCD, PTSD, C-PTSD, Severe Anxiety (to the point of being mute), Brain Fog (I find it increasingly difficult to remember things or focus ugh)
 
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derekWest

Experienced
Feb 1, 2025
268
depression, autism (globally : lack of courage and motivation to face life's adversities and i'm borring due to lack of social relations)
 
ramon

ramon

Student
Aug 10, 2024
164
Worst ocd, depression, dpdr, brain fog(concentration issues), generalized anxiety, some other crap, list goes on

It's admirable to see you're still alive inspite of all your mental struggles... it's also understandable if you choose to CTB because of your mental struggles, just like Zoraya ter Beek's case:

I'm not comparing, but ocd is a demon of mental illness

Doctors didn't tell me how strong my OCD can be (always making decisions based on anything at any moment can go wrong; and if it goes wrong, it's all my fault). What I know is the bullying in the past and underestimation of my condition are part of the reasons why I want to CTB.

I don't care if others have way worse than me, I'm still looking for that bus stop.

Thanks for caring, though.
 
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foreverstardust

Member
Feb 5, 2025
52
I've only been diagnosed with depression, this was when I was still a kid after being put into foster care. I've always felt like there's something else wrong with me though, I've always felt two steps behind everyone and not able to understand simple things, every time I try to connect with people I'm just a bit too weird and awkward and unable to communicate properly, when I'm around other people I feel like I'm not really human idk. My memory is really bad, I can't take in new information my brain just repeats things on a loop, I struggle to remember things that happened both in my own life and in history, I'm not sure if this is some kind of depression related brain fog or whether I'm just stupid or what.
 
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Hotsackage

Enlightened
Mar 11, 2019
1,184
It's admirable to see you're still alive inspite of all your mental struggles... it's also understandable if you choose to CTB because of your mental struggles, just like Zoraya ter Beek's case:



Doctors didn't tell me how strong my OCD can be (always making decisions based on anything at any moment can go wrong; and if it goes wrong, it's all my fault). What I know is the bullying in the past and underestimation of my condition are part of the reasons why I want to CTB.

I don't care if others have way worse than me, I'm still looking for that bus stop.

Thanks for caring, though.
Trust me i get it, I don't put up with It anymore, like I'll cut off my best friends if I have to. But I also don't listen to it overanazlyzing, of every little threat or detail. Thoughts go on, but whatever u decide, really is understandable.
 
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depthss

depthss

wikihow
Dec 12, 2023
233
I AM NOT STRUGGLIGN MENTALLY I SEE THINGS FRO HOW THY ARE AND THAT IS MY ISSUE I AM TOO AWARE OF MY WEAKNESSS AND INHERIT UNCHANGABLE INFERIORITY AND UNLIKE MSOY WOMEN I DISLIKE BEING LIEK THIS AND HYA IS WHY I HAE TO DO IT
 
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