Volatile

Volatile

God
Jun 18, 2018
1,286
For me, it's reading, sleeping, and movies.
 
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Life sucks

Visionary
Apr 18, 2018
2,134
Gaming, sleeping , eating, anime, thinking about ctb, sexual stuff
 
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GiveMeNovacaine

GiveMeNovacaine

Member
Jun 11, 2018
50
Hope that things will turn around. If that runs out, it's CTB time.
 
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ikadasui

Arcanist
May 29, 2018
466
games,anime,food and drink and thats about it really
 
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Liblib

Member
Jun 17, 2018
9
Family, booze, games.
 
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IQof87SadButTrue

Member
Jun 11, 2018
35
I love reading books, cultivating new skills and focusing on self improvement. The idea I'm working towards a goal keeps me motivated to not drink N.
This is shameful for me to admit but I also like collecting Pokemon cards.
 
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Liblib

Member
Jun 17, 2018
9
Another thing, I wouldn't say it make life bearable but awhile back I kinda stole some games from my brother to support mine and ex's habbit and I promised myself I'd replace em one day. So that's one thing that's at least is keeping me around
 
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Maya

Member
Apr 24, 2018
29
My dog. Art. Story telling. Dnd, videogames. Hiking, travels( escapism)
 
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Samuel

Wise
Apr 25, 2018
243
My cat.
 
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Tomasnil

Mage
Apr 24, 2018
519
Alcohol and sex
 
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millefeui

Enlightened
Mar 31, 2018
1,034
My doggo. I also have a good friend who is a sweetie. It pains me that I will hurt him when I kill myself, but I am not staying around for decades just for him.

That aside, I play games, watch nonsense on YouTube, draw... That is it.
 
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Emilia

Emilia

Member
Jun 19, 2018
82
Anything that gets me away from my family also Movies,Tv series,music,friends
 
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Sternum

Student
May 12, 2018
120
The answer for me is nothing. Life is not bearable, and apparently neither is causing my own death. Fucking hell.
 
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Xmac000

Somewhere...
May 23, 2018
102
Marijuana and fast food. Thats it.
 
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JustDie

Member
Jun 18, 2018
54
Porn. That is all. Nothing else gives me pleasures.
 
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PeskyPapaya

PeskyPapaya

Member
Jun 17, 2018
6
Fantasizing about being someone else.
 
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KillMe

Member
Jun 13, 2018
20
Nothing.
 
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Thoughts95

Member
May 25, 2018
14
Life turned around for me, for now

My appreciation for animals is much greater after long term suicidal depression and severe social rejection though. My pets mean a lot
 
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chronicpainnomore

Not Circling the Drain Anymore
May 31, 2018
310
Meds to control my pain. Now that they're gone, I'm hanging on as long as I can. Life is unbearable for me now. What keeps me hanging on is my family. I don't want to leave them, and I feel like CTB will be giving up on them. But I'm a human being, not Superman. I have limits.
 
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transgenderfailure

Subhuman Creature
Apr 30, 2018
118
the fact that ill basically drag a family into a bad situation with me... or maybe this is just an illusion of my brain to keep me alive, maybe my family is pretty resilient... ill never find out cause even hinting wanting to ctb at them makes them change subject or look at me like it's crazy that I desire to not feel anything anymore.
 
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maktubler

maktubler

Member
May 22, 2018
65
My unborn child.
 
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usrnm80

Member
Jun 15, 2018
7
Music, escapism. Lots of alone time bc I never can relax with another person near.
 
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El Topo

El Topo

(---)
Apr 21, 2018
477
Meds to control my pain. Now that they're gone, I'm hanging on as long as I can. Life is unbearable for me now. What keeps me hanging on is my family. I don't want to leave them, and I feel like CTB will be giving up on them. But I'm a human being, not Superman. I have limits.

Hey man, what exactly happened with the parachute accident? And what kind of damage did it do to your back?
 
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Sasha

Member
Jun 13, 2018
95
Pizza, Internet & my blade.
 
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satisfying my human needs: food, sleeping, sexual activity and entertaining my mind by watching videos and reading.
 
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Delilah

Member
Jun 14, 2018
11
Video games and my dogs/cat. I pets actually bring me joy most of the time, and video games are a good distraction.
 
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El Topo

El Topo

(---)
Apr 21, 2018
477
Reading, meditating, wondering in amazement at how crazy and fucked-up and hilarious and bizarre and incomprehensible the world is...
 
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chronicpainnomore

Not Circling the Drain Anymore
May 31, 2018
310
Hey man, what exactly happened with the parachute accident? And what kind of damage did it do to your back?
I deployed unstable, so I got wrapped up in the bridle that connects the pilot chute to the main chute. It wrapped around my legs, and pulled them up so I was in a head-down position when the main deployed. So the main snapped open, and I got whipped around and then decelerated from 200 MPH to 5 MPH in about half a second. It was like a high-speed car accident in midair. I was knocked unconscious and woke up on the ground with a broken leg and my L5/S1 disc was blown out. The military surgeons then used me as a guinea pig for a disc replacement that was a piece of shit. I've been in pain ever since.
 
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El Topo

El Topo

(---)
Apr 21, 2018
477
I deployed unstable, so I got wrapped up in the bridle that connects the pilot chute to the main chute. It wrapped around my legs, and pulled them up so I was in a head-down position when the main deployed. So the main snapped open, and I got whipped around and then decelerated from 200 MPH to 5 MPH in about half a second. It was like a high-speed car accident in midair. I was knocked unconscious and woke up on the ground with a broken leg and my L5/S1 disc was blown out. The military surgeons then used me as a guinea pig for a disc replacement that was a piece of shit. I've been in pain ever since.

Damn that sucks. The military absolutely uses soldiers as guinea pigs.

I read about a guy who had some spinal condition and had to get surgery every year for 10 years, completely rebuilding his spine. After the final surgery, he went to visit his parents, slipped on the ice, and broke his back, completely undoing the previous 10 years' worth of surgery. So he CTBed...
 
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Lucas

Lucas

Member
May 26, 2018
81
Not being awake for 7-8 hours.
 
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