What keeps you here still?

[drained999]

Why aren't you dead yet?

 

[platypus77]

I still have the choice to try a radically different way of life, until I have exhausted all my options I guess I'll hang around.

And most importantly, family.

 

[cme-dme]

Pretty much just friends and family

 

[MercenariesofMidgar]

I don't have SN yet. After that my goodbye thread won't take long after.

 

[SWATKATS]

My wife and daughter, and the little hope I still have.

 

[Sleeper System]

Haven't hit rock bottom yet. Life feels so pointless but if you just eat and sleep then it keeps going. That and a sense of responsibility to family and friends. but hitting rock bottom will push me over the edge and those things won't be enough to stop me.

 

[Eudaimonic]

Don't have the necessary supplies yet, still have some preparation and planning to do

 

[-nobodyknows-]

I don't want someone who cares about me to be the one to find me

 

[NonEssential]

Don't have the right type of rope. I also love my family, although I sometimes get in a frustrated mood where I stop caring about that.

 

[divinemistress36]

Fear of failure and becoming a vegetable and no energy to plan

 

[Moniker]

Fear of death - survival instinct mostly.

I'm also studying for grad school admissions. So, I kind of want to see where I go from here.

 

[ShatteredSerenity]

I don't have everything I need to CTB yet, but I'm very close.

 

[TheHolySword]

waiting for my life insurance policy to hit 2 years so it'll cover suicide. went on for as long as i could for my brother, but it's almost time.

 

[SchizoGymnast]

I think of all the good deeds I want to do and all the lives I could potentially save (that want saving of course). I think of all the people who are dying who are dying alone and who need someone to journey with them. And I'm like...why not me? If I'm going to be alive, I want my whole life to be an act of love and service. And hopefully I won't be kept around longer than necessary

 

[Forever Sleep]

I think my suicide would be devastating for my Dad.

After that, I worry fear may hold me back but hopefully, I will push through that.

 

[SmilingNoMore]

Luck I guess, good or bad, on autopilot while time passes, a silent countdown till the day arrives.

 

[FuneralCry]

I suffer in this existence as after all I was so harmfully burdened with this existence that I never would have wished for, I was forced to suffer in this reality where suffering is seen as to force and prolong no matter what with me denied the option to find permanent peace from the abomination of existence where existing beings suffer so unbearably all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway. The fact that I cannot just have a death like falling into an eternal dreamless sleep even know this existence was imposed in the first place really is so cruel to me and painful.

What I find horrific is how trying to die can go wrong and lead to way worse torture as a result, it's just horrific in general how there is no limit as to how much one can suffer in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, for me non-existence really is all that's positive and I'd always prefer to not exist than be enslaved in this futile existence suffering all for the sake of it just to be tortured by old age, to me existence itself really is the true problem, all I wish for is to be permanently unconscious, I wish to never suffer ever again.

 

[outrider567]

No real justifiable reason why I'm still here--Just a flick of the switch turning on the Nitrogen is all it takes to end my endless depression for good

 

[d3m1g0d]

I suppose I am way too lazy and disorganized to perform research and planning, gotta try harder

 

[devils~advocate]

I still have some things that I need to do......
I have some projects that I want to finish.
I also have some personal items that I need to sort thru so others dont have to.

 

[Blueberry Panic]

SI, Pain and drugs

 

[Lxions]

im scared to leave my fiancé

 

[brokeandbroken]

Why aren't you dead yet?

That answer is harder for me to answer everyday. I genuinely have no idea. I really should be dead. I truly should not be alive.

 

[manicstreetbeeper]

nothing. i'm waiting to go. i hope things will get better in the process but i don'tknow. it feels like it wont end.

 

[Permanoir]

I haven't got all the necessary materials yet

 

[Darkover]

government restrictions on effective peaceful suicide methods

 

[_Minsk]

not much, i'm on some last medication for the next months and if it doesn't help i'm out here for good.

 

[ThatRussianDude]

Weed & youtube.