What is your own personal hell?

[Darkover]

I'm living it already this place and machine existence is my own personal hell
just tortured daily for the last 8 years due to a brain injury
i would never choose to come alive to this hellhole
i see no reason to ever want to be alive here

 

[Forever Sleep]

Periods in my childhood came close. Living with a (suspected) narcissist and being terrified of what they might say or do next. It's awful to live in fear. Physical pain is terrible too. Gallstones is the worst pain I've experienced so far. I'd probably still opt for that over being around this person though! At least I could take codeine for relief for the pain. So, from my own personal experience of life, my childhood over again would be my hell. That said- I'm sure there are much worse things you can go through.

That's what peeves me about life though. People telling you to be grateful it's no worse. Like- what a f*cking low bar! Seriously? Why would you be grateful for something that is fairly bad already but has the potential to be so much worse?!!

 

[GhostShell]

Being forcefully kept alive and not having the strength or ability to end it, while suffering immensely.

Unfortunately I am quite close to this situation.

 

[indefinitesleep]

living with anhedonia, i cant feel anything joy sadness nothing its like being trapped in limbo, fuck this shit

 

[Hystearical]

Living for months with an acute, incessant, excruciating condition that no one can see or perceive in any way because it's completely invisible.

I don't have to imagine what that's like.

 

[Metalhead]

living with anhedonia, i cant feel anything joy sadness nothing its like being trapped in limbo, fuck this shit

Relatable, it destroys you.

 

[ultrasharpy123456]

I couldn't tell you even if I wanted to. Not only that, I'm not even allowed to.

 

[Sunttu1997]

No interest in anything. Life is just chore after chore.

 

[oneirataxia]

Memories of people I can't go back to, and actions I can't undo.

 

[indefinitesleep]

Memories of people I can't go back to, and actions I can't undo.

aint that the truth

 

[lizzywizzy09]

The one I'm in.

 

[Dark Window]

If I were in your shoes, I'd get over this fear of hell and Christianity shit and CTB

 

[Hollowman]

Living the same day over and over again with no relief in sight.

 

[Hotsackage]

Like you, a prisoner of mind. I'm sorry for your troubles

 

[derpyderpins]

Somewhere wherein my permanent place of residence is a place I have no control over. I'm at someone else's mercy minute to minute. The anxiety of knowing I have no true privacy or autonomy would drive me nuts. I don't want to "rely on the kindness of" anyone. Also there are bees/hornets/wasps everywhere.

 

[JKFleck]

My best and only friend cutting me off on top of all the hell that you (the OP) already talked about across all your threads

 

[nymb]

every second i stay awake is hell to me, i dont like the feeling of consciousness

 

[_AllCatsAreGrey_]

Being forced to work often feels like hell to me.

 

[AmberianDawn]

My genetics

 

[divinemistress87]

My brain is my personal hell

 

[Darkover]

If I were in your shoes, I'd get over this fear of hell and Christianity shit and CTB

can't government taken away my choice and enslaved me