What is your list of reasons for committing suicide?

[Dante_]

I think it can be generally summarized this way : life is a treacherous and arduous slog, they can keep it honestly, its an overrated scam and a very well marketed one at that.

 

[Zerengin96]

I really dont get much joy out of life and i dont value basic human desires like friendship and companionship, life is just really boring for me

 

[WPack]

1. Autism and ADHD
2. Felt too much pain in my life by people
3. Wish i was born good looking
4. i never been truly happy in ages
5. ill just keep waking up miserable
6. i have nothing to amount to the world
7. Loneliness
8. Looking back on life in general, i wish it was all better.

thats all i can think of right now.

 

[wtg]

1.Useless
2.Worthless
3.Waste of space
4.Stupid
5.Has no future
6.No ambition
7.Poor AF
8.Hopeless
9.Trash of society
10.Jobless
11.and many more that i couldnt think of rn.

 

[MyShadow]

Go all out!

1. I can't fit in with my peers, I'm out of place, awkward and not funny enough
2. I have next to no friends
3. Nobody around me really likes me
4. I don't like my only friend
5. I only talk to him because without his company I feel dead inside
6. My neighbours ignore me and dislike me
7. I get paid 0 attention in society
8. I am flat footed and can hardly walk properly on the sidewalk
9. I am pretty sure I have a coordination disability
10. I have autism
11. I have Bipolar
12. I have a learning disability
13. My roommate couldn't care less about me and is rude sometimes
14. The game I play online has people randomly insulting me or telling me I'm useless
15. I suck at playing games
16. I'm not very intelligent at all, next to dumb actually
17. I can't pursue my passions because I lack ability to develop myself
18. Feeling sensitive to noise in certain environments where it's impossible to change
19. My stepfather doesn't care about me
20. My mother doesn't care about me
21. My father abandoned me
22. When I was a young teen I was taken advantage of sexually
23. staff at my current home told me that was my fault because I said yes, the man was 28 I was 14.
24. staff neglecting me and it being hard to carry a conversation with them
25. Being unable to group chat on this site because of social anxiety
26. Being treated like shit as a kid, and neglected constantly
27. Bullied like crazy as a child in school
28. My mother calling me "stupid" the last time we talked
29. People who are rude to me in society, for no reason
30. The man I thought I loved, broke my heart and left me.

• Knowing that the life I loved is over.
• I hate watching the people who I love die.
• I fear the vulnerability of getting old.
• Watching the US economy destroy my business and life.
• Having my expenses outstrip my income.
• Not being able to afford the necessities of life or be able to make a major purchase because I simply can't afford it.
• Knowing that my family really does not care about what happens to me.
• Losing faith in love and relationships.
• Watching my government destroy the economy, the environment and global alliances.
• A complete fear of poverty and homelessness.
• Knowing that my depression, anxiety and PTSD will only get worse because healthcare in the US has become largely unaffordable. Same with my overall health.
• Facing the loneliness and isolation that I deal with every day.
• Not seeing my children.

 

[kopebaldy]

1. Life sucks

2. I sucks at life

 

[kittypanova]

- being disabled in a country that fucking hates you and wants you to die if you can't provide labor value
- capitalism
- everyone is evil

 

[100percentbeer]

1) schizophrenia
2) friends repeatedly get close to me then reject me
3) difficult family relationships
4) trouble being a meaningful member of society
5) done something I deeply regret that caused harm to someone else
6) I have nothing and no one and given my history it would be nearly impossible to attain anything meaningful

 

[fallingbehind]

I dont have the personality type to function in "the real world". I was born broken, I just dont find anything about life appealing.

Nobody has ever given me an answer for the question "why should I live?" outside of a religious psyop, random coping mechanisms or a corny platitude.

 

[TBONTB]

1. finances
2. Becoming homeless
3. Medical costs
4. Being old
5. Lack of social safety net for old peopel

 

[Andarna]

I remember trying to make a list like that once, but it got so long that I got bored and went for a walk ^^"

 

[iamanavalanche]

1. have not experience a year without SA since the age of 13
2. cocsa at 7
3. fear of every place and every person
4. fear of being SA again as i cannot control what another person does to me
5. a constant depression
6. i am extremely high strung. no matter what happens, its too much for me to handle
7. phobia of embarrassment (SAD)
8. i have no real life friends
9. i cannot make any friends due to my constant suicidal ideation and being pro-choice
10. too anxious and frightened to make any connections
11. fetishism of my identity
12. sexual harassment (such as catcalls) being a common occurrence
13. the world is fucked up and i can't do anything about it. i am so angry
14. i hate my dad and he hates me. he is an angry, ignorant, cop, pig, man
15. my mother hates me. i am never enough. all she cares about is me becoming skinny. she thinks im a failure for life
16. my brother is ignorant and physically violent
17. always being abandoned, replaced, or betrayed
18. i cannot shower without being triggered
19. flashbacks to sexual assaults
20. was raped ~150 times
21. was groomed 4x
22. ill never be seen as anything but a sex object
23. everyday intrusive thoughts of pedophilia
24. i feel extremely unlikeable
25. a frequent on and off anhedonia
26. i would be saving myself from further harm
27. i hate myself
28. i am unlikely to be in a healthy relationship due to my SA experiences
29. if i dont ctb eventually, my sn will expire and ill have no real way out as police have my card activity tracked
30. the world would be a better place without me

 

[divinemistress36]

I dont have the personality type to function in "the real world". I was born broken, I just dont find anything about life appealing.

Nobody has ever given me an answer for the question "why should I live?" outside of a religious psyop, random coping mechanisms or a corny platitude.

For real . They say stupid shit like live for icecream and sunshine. As if that makes up for all the suffering here

 

[chudeatte]

im bored of absolutely everything
ill never have a future and I can't imagine one
I know suicide is inevitable
I hate my family more than anything and I can't stand that im related to them
nothing means anything to me anymore
life in general is pointless and extremely sufferable
I will never fit into society, and I can't even attempt to. people always think im off no matter how much I try to hide it
I hate dealing with people and I hate society
I dont want to be a slave to the system for even a moment let alone for the rest of my life
my life means nothing in the grand scheme of things

 

[AntarusDragon]

Very bad luck in every aspect of life. Life has turned its ass towards me... it's just a continuous black streak with no way out, no matter how many times I try to change something. And yes, I believe that after death I will live in a more spiritual world than this planet.

 

[kopebaldy]

1. I

2. Am

3. Fucking

4. Tired

 

[LetMeOut67]

1. Look like I've been dragged through hell
2. Too neurotic and damaged to cope
3. No friends so suffer terrible isolation
4. Hate the 21st century and think it's a shit time to be alive especially politically
5. Middle aged and worn out fear bodily decline and dementia

 

[telekon]

used to be because i was on the verge of homelessness and poor

im barely scraping by and trying to survive on what little spirit i have left... i just ignore the outside world and live in my own little world

i still have no friends or loved ones so loneliness is a top reason... i hope one day i will be able to connect with people again

i just entered my 30s and it was sort of a wild ride until recently so i'm hoping something's gotta give

 

[bigjwang]

- being disabled in a country that fucking hates you and wants you to die if you can't provide labor value
- capitalism
- everyone is evil

Yep this is pretty much my boat as well.

People don't seem to understand that there's more to life than just being alive.

Stupid normie ableists.

 

[Alexandra_]

I'm suffering from an illness, and I also have a lack of acceptance of my appearance and gender. Life isn't for me, it's for others

 

[crazyotterkelly]

1) im trans
2) born into a family with horrific motorcycle accidents that effects them 18 years later.
3)also abusive
4) also heavy drug users, done every drug besides the stuff you inject
5) decided to kick me out 4 times and abuse me even worse then they did 10x before for being trans
6) had to lose my job from forced to being moved again from my cousins after they had enough of me being trans
7) neurodivergent as all fuck
8) i've been trying to fix my situation for years and its only getting worse\
9) might be homeless again if anything happens to welfare/savings. i can't go back to my parents. i don't have a car or two jobs this time
10) the amount of suffering i have had to go through over the last 6 years. i know there is more to come and the rewards of the better parts of life don't even feel worth it anymore.
11) keep getting tastes of love and connection that never last and i swear it hurt more knowing in the forefront how lonely i am compared to when i was alone in a country mining town mostly. knowing im never going to have that sort of connection
12) i've lost everything that i worked so hard for since 16

 

[strugglingsimba]

Thanks to everyone on this thread for putting into words some things I couldn't. Its so unfair to so be out of place in this world

 

[Seaghost]

- The childhood with so called friends and parents
- Programming of my head (There is no cure)
- The loneliness inside of me
- Life is a prison
- The mental scars
- Beeing chronic exhausted since first anti depressant pills
- Pain in my body
- Watching everyone passing me by
- Another one could have made more out of this life

 

[Irisse]

1. I was bullied so badly that I'm forever traumatized.
2. I'm studying for a demanding University programme but I'm far from successful.
3. Can't even be a neet because that requires living with my parents which means noisy loud neighbours. I am very sensitive to sounds.
4. Due to all of this I suffer from mental issues like severe paranoia and psychosis.
5. The world is getting worse and there is nothing I can do about it.
6. I am ugly as I look 40 instead of 25 because of my weight and hairstyle. I often get called "ma'am".
7. I've never had a job and I'm already 25.
8. I'm haunted by bad memories and past mistakes.
There are more but these are my main ones, in no particular order.

 

[Kanoh]

My OCD. It is so severe it ruins every aspect of my life completely. Tried every possible treatment, nothing works. Not being able to peacefully pass with the help of doctors under those circumstances is a horror.

 

[hmnow]

Just simply tired with life

 

[bbbbbeluga]

Can't get over the guilt from shit I did while I was an addict. I'm shocked at my past self and feel horrible for how I treated others, one in particular. I wish I was never prescribed adderall. I've overcome so much but this is just eating me up inside.

 

[Macedonian1987]

I only have one reason for me to committing suicide. It's not that I don't have any friends, nor that I have no love life, nor that I have Asperger's and everyone perceives me as a weird. It's none of them.
It's the chronic pain that torments me and steals all the joy out of my life and causes my depression. As my body ages this pain is gonna get worse and worse, and that's why I plan on cbt in a 1-2 years.

 

[someonewhoshouldgo]

1. I've never had one place I've been able to "fit in" into.
2. Most people want me gone as soon as possible tbh.
3. I'm not smart or talented enough to make a good living.
4. I've disappointed everyone who ever was silly enough to care about me.
5. I don't believe in God so I think this daily suffering is useless.
6. Nobody cares about me and multiple people would be better off if I was gone.
7. I'm ugly and fat, unfortunately have always been this way.
8. I'm tired of being aware of these facts and being expected to live despite people acknowledging that no one cares about me.
9. This world is only going to get worse. Very unlikely to ever get better.
10. Nobody wants me to be around them.
11. I want peace.

 

[TheCallOfTheStars]

1. I've made too many mistakes in life. I think I deserve this after all I've done
2. I've ruined everything with one of my former partners to the point where they're broken beyond repair
3. I've ruined so many friendships both online and offline due to my reckless behavior
4. I've wasted the most important years of my life doing nothing except play video games, draw, and gush all over my partner instead of actually making connections and finding jobs
5. Nothing in life really brings me happiness anymore
6. This world isn't going to get better
7. My former partner dragged me down to this point and I just let them do it
8. A lot of people I know would be better off with me gone
9. Not being loved and cared for by anyone besides my former partner(s)
10. Numerous mental health issues
11. I'm hideous and overweight
12. No one is ever going to love me again after what happened with my ex gf