My personal most ideal method would be a death as peaceful and painless as possible, I wish I had the option to cease existing peacefully and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have that as all I want is to never suffer ever again, I wish for no more suffering, I always wish for guaranteed, painless poison that gives me a death like falling into an eternal dreamless sleep so finally I can be free from the suffering of this cruel, torturous existence.